SBF, Reboot Boogaloo, May 16th

yoginimary

Howdy pebbs!

Today is double yoga, walk, and yard work. I don't think it will be this nice again until late September, so I should get it in now. Soon, I will have my summer skin. I'm one of those lucky ones that usually tans quite well.

Goal for the week: no sweets this week, except a square of chocolate if desired (only one per day). Even Charlie mentioned that we should take it easy on the sweets - so even though I'm going to Fort Worth this weekend, I will stay away. Brain already had second thoughts about dinner with my sister!

Bad brain, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

Mary, I wish I had summer skin. I usually burn or get nothing. All three of us got burned at the lake this weekend. :frown:

Today starts my two weeks of change, and emotionally I want to crawl back into bed and make everyone and everything go away till June 1st. But I can't do that, so I will face it head on.

I have to get my blood work done again today for my thyroid. I am taking a letter along to give to the doctor that explains the problems I am having. I am hoping that may be used instead of setting up an appointment to speak with him. I also have to take Alex to his last tumbling class and then watch my friend's boys for a few hours. I wish I was looking forward to today. :ohwell:

I was planning on working out this morning but I've run out of time. I don't know if I will have time later. Depends on what time my friend gets back. Also I think running is out for now. My knee was killing me over the weekend. :frown: I may log today if I have time to enter it all.

Get over it and get through it boogaloo.
MM

lotusfromthemud

Happy middle of May, pebbles,

I can't believe it's the middle of the year practically, nor can I believe I will turn forty in three days. Minor freakout over both. Also, minor freakout over trip which I don't feel I've planned enough for. Pretty much we're just going. Not used to that. Yesterday was our fifth anniversary, but my husband is down is the states, so we're postponing the celebrating of that. Birthaversary, we call it.

Anyways, today is dance class (the higher energy continues, maybe the meds are kicking in, they're prescribed for fibro but are also an anti depressant. Maybe part of my fatigue was depression. Or, maybe less pain equals more energy, or more sleep equals more energy. Anyways, less questioning...more energy continues!) then some project editing/fact checking/citations. The goal is to edit five pages, then quit, so however long that takes. Then I have an acupuncture treatment, then rest.

That seems like enough right there.

Just enough, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

cp005e

Hi pebbles! My friend loaned me his iPad for a little while so I could see if it works better for me to wander around web browsing (since I need to be walking/standing a lot more of the time) - so that's how I'm typing this post. I can actually type relatively well on it, except for the punctuation.

Anyway... Backsliding a bit on the good eating habits. Weirdly, it seems like the drug is affecting my appetite, but I'm still eating just as much (even though I'm not hungry, or feel a little sick to my stomach). WTH? I was realizing over the weekend that a lot of what was going on with me was fear - frustration at not being able to do things that I want to do, yes, but mostly the fact that I feel like I have to be constantly worrying about my posture and how my body is feeling and whether things are "ok" or whether I'm going to have pain again. Bleh. I skipped some logging, but am going to try to go ahead and log things even when they aren't good choices (I have the bad habit of not logging it once I start going off the deep end).

Ok, that's enough iPad typing.

New toy, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

V, I am so glad you are having more energy these days! I hope it continues for you!

CP, glad to see you check in more often! I stop logging when I start eating bad too. I really need to log it. I guess I don't because the goal is to stay around my calorie goal, and if I know I didn't stay close to it, why log?

Mary, is there more rain in the forecast for you? We have some slight chances coming up.

Yesterday I got a whole bunch of cleaning done. I did the things I don't get around to very often, like dusting. I also put away all markers, finger paints, etc that a child would get into and put on my walls or furniture. I planned to do this when Miss I comes home anyway, at least for awhile, until I can get to know her better and teach her. I also put away scissors. These things have never been a problem for Alex. I really have the perfect boy.
Today we have our usual Tuesday errands. Then I am going to try to walk on the TM, maybe do upper body, and finish getting things ready for Jeremiah to come tonight. I have been really anxious about him coming but this morning I'm doing a little better. If my dumb girly would start I'd probably be feeling a lot better.
Oh and I realized that I have got to at least put on a face when people ask me to watch their kids. My friend backed out yesterday when she felt like I had too much going on to watch her boys. I did have a lot going on but I could have watched them. I'm kind of glad she backed out though because it turns out she has had a stomach virus and upper resp. sickness. :sick:
And I've dreamed about cake the last two nights. I don't know why. Sounds good though.

Have a good boogaloo!
MM

lotusfromthemud

Morning, pebbs

Lots to do today in prep for the trip. Also, trying not to panic because it looks an awful lot like I'm not getting a contract this summer. This is the latest it's ever been without getting informed, anyways. I have enough money saved, but. . . I want to keep that money saved. Big money worries, especially since the trip is an expense. Anyways, not thinking about that right now. My husband has some recording projects coming up, and I am trying to have faith that we'll be provided for. It's hard for me, I worry about money. I am a weird paradox. I love luxurious things, but hate to spend money.

Instead, just thinking about today. In which I will: run errands to get the cats well stocked with litter and treats and give the keys to our friend who will look in on them, edit five more pages, pack, get all the itineraries/tickets, etc printed out, and then be sure to get to bed at a semi reasonable hour. Also, I can report this morning, with the exception of some cramping and low back pain (special lady time) I am nearly pain free. So, hooray!

Worry just about today, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

yoginimary

Are you asked to babysit a lot, MM? It's ok if it's reciprocated, but otherwise I think you are taken advantage of. We do have a slight chance of rain in the forecast, but it's on Friday - when we head to Fort Worth! Luckily, we have some wiggle room for when we leave - so hopefully we can miss the storms.

Are you leaving tomorrow, V?

Glad to see you checking in, CP.

I considered taking today off. I don't know if I can do it though - just doesn't feel right. I will do a little walk on the treadmill - but my body feels like it needs a rest, and I have tons of stuff going on today.
I got too full on salad yesterday, that was a first. I knew I should have stopped, but I just kept thinking "but it's just salad". Good to be aware anyway.

Being aware, boogaloo

mechanicmom

Update:
This has been a weird day. The car died on me on the way to horse therapy. Thank God is was at a stop light and it started up again. But it stressed me out and I got mad at Alex so then he was crying. We get done at horse therapy and the car cranks but won't start. I called Steve and thank God (again!) that he was actually in the area doing a job! Somehow we are going to get the car to my friend's house so it won't be on therapy property. Then I get a call from the doc (talked to him personally!) and he said my thyroid numbers are perfect and he addressed the letter I sent him. He thinks my hormones are out of whack (gee, I've suspected that for years), especially progesterone. He wants me to take a saliva test which costs about $150. I really want to take it, but the money just isn't there. I looked up the symptoms and wow, I do have a lot of them. I could just go buy cream but I don't want to start messing with my hormones on my own. I'm afraid of messing them up. He also said I could be starting menopause. :noway: That is a bad word. I'm not ready for that. He said his sister went through it at age 36. So at least he does think there's something wrong. Low progesterone can cause lack of feelings for anything so that's what I am thinking.
The chances of getting the test done anytime soon is very low unless the Lord drops $150 in my lap. Whatever is wrong with the mustang sounds expensive (fuel pump or ignition/alarm system) and the Xterra isn't doing so hot either.
So tonight we have to go try to move the mustang and get back home by nine so I can be here to take care of Jeremiah. I want my cave so I can go hide.
I did work out today though. It didn't help. I read that a symptom is intolerance to exercise. What does that mean? It means a person feels sick, dizzy or fatigued after exercise. Hmmm. That would be me. Plus I am still cramping and emotional all day every day. :grumble: Please lady time, come so I can feel better.
So that's my update. Why does everything hit at once? I don't know. I'm just so thankful that Steve was nearby this morning to get me and that Alex is no longer mad at me for getting angry.

MM

cp005e

Sorry you are having such a tough time lately, MM. It's rough that the test is so expensive! We just switched over to my company's health insurance - I had been debating going without for a bit because it would be more expensive through my company than it used to be through my hubby's old company. But when the nerve pain hit, I spent the morning making sure I could get signed up, and then I called my doctor! I'm always amazed at how much these things cost. Back to my doc tomorrow - I'm going to ask more questions about whether it could be a back issue, since that's where my insight is pointing me at the moment.

So, funny thing... I thought I did absolutely horrible on my calories today, because I had both a bagel AND a donut at work. :embarassed: But, I just added it all up, and I was over by less than a hundred. It's eye-opening, actually. I feel fine, and now I'm less likely to go on a crazy binge "since it doesn't matter anyway". Tiny insights - I'll take them!

When do you leave, V? I hope you have a great time. I heard 'Book of Mormon' was good if you want to catch a show.

Mary, you keep talking about storms - there was a tornado warning for Austin when I was there and met you, remember? I just hope that the Mississippi settles down soon. I remember piling sandbags for the Missouri floods in 1994 when I was in high school, which I thought were pretty bad (large parts of the capital city were flooded) - but this year seems ridiculous.

Insight, boogaloo.

lotusfromthemud

Eek!

Morning, pebbs.
Off to what looks like a rainy NYC birthday. On a plane. Snake brain hates the plane. But, I have anti-anxiety meds and a husband, so those should help. also, I found out yesterday that I'm unemployed for the next four months, so that puts a bit of a damper on the trip. If I had that info two months ago (when I was assured in a meeting that I would get a summer contract) we wouldn't be taking this trip. Wheeee! My life is an adventure, full of surprises.

Probably not much checking in while I'm away, but lots of walking in the rain.

Snake brain hates the airplane, boogaloo.:flowerforyou:

mechanicmom

CP, you have encouraged me to check in even when I think I've eaten horribly for the day. Thanks.

V, Happy birthday!!!! Try to enjoy your trip and not worry about money. Somehow, someway, the money will come and you will be provided for. :flowerforyou:

We got the boys to bed at ten last night, and they were up again at 7. I got about 5 minutes of devotional time. I'm sure Jeremiah is just excited and Alex seems to be too. So far they are talking up a storm and doing well. Poor Jeremiah has a really bad speech impediment so it is hard for me to understand him. He leaves off all the first letters of almost every word. I can understand about every fifth word or so.
I do not know what the plan is for the day. I need to stay on top of laundry, get my general cleaning done, and keep two little boys out of trouble. If it's not too windy (said 35 mph at times) then I may take them to the park because there are rain chances the next few days.
Guess I'd better go. The natives are restless.

Oi boogaloo.
MM

yoginimary

Happy 40th V! Enjoy yourself!

Hope you keep your sanity, MM,
Hope you get good news from the doc, CP.

I ended up walking an hour yesterday. I couldn't help myself. I did it at a slow or medium pace, so still a day off.

Another hour walk today and double yoga. I'm going to call a PT today to make an appointment about my knee. It doesn't effect my daily life, but it makes certain yoga poses challenging - stuff that I have the flexibility to do. I have two people to go to - one is a PT, the other a chiropractor with PTs on staff.

Getting fixed, boogaloo!

cp005e

Happy happy birthday, V!

I have a pretty good doctor. She spent a lot of time with me this morning and did a pretty thorough sensation test on my legs - making sure I could feel light touch, pressure, vibration, pointy things. She also checked my reflexes. The good news is, everything seems OK in those regards - which does make a spinal nerve issue seem less likely. But, still not sure what's going on. She told me to up my meds, and sent me for x-rays of my spine and my leg (plus the bloodwork). Hopefully I will hear something Friday on all of that. My boss is also very supportive of getting me a keyboard tray and a better chair, so that's good to hear.

Tonight I'm going to a friend's house to play bunko! Apparently it's a dice game of some sort, but it seems to be mostly an excuse for the ladies in her neighborhood to hang out without their husbands or kids. I'll probably be the only one there who doesn't have children, but hopefully they won't look at me weird. We've been friends for a long time, so I'm not really worried - just shy!

Bunko? boogaloo :flowerforyou:

mechanicmom

CP, I'm glad you are getting all that testing done and I hope you get the results back before the weekend!

Mary, I hope you get help soon on your knee. My knee still bothers me after a long walk or running. :grumble: If I don't do either then it does okay.

V, hope your flight went smoothly and that you are having a good time!

Yesterday was interesting. We walked to the park, which I thought would wear the boys out, but it didn't really. It wore me out though. Alex and Jeremiah are getting along great for the most part except Jeremiah broke a lego plane and Alex is not wanting to share a couple of his toys. So typical stuff. The day was mostly filled with lots of giggles and some crying. Last night at church I heard Jeremiah crying and went back to check on him. It was the "sitter's" first time watching kids there, and she said Jeremiah was chasing her around the room biting her or trying to bite her. :noway: I don't believe her. It did not fit it with the character of Jeremiah. I told his mom last night and she was shocked and said she would talk to him today about it. Maybe it was exaggerated or something, but I probably won't be taking him next Wednesday night. Steve has a meeting with the Pastor tonight about other things so he said he would try to remember to talk to him about it. If he doesn't, then I will. I won't feel comfortable sending Alex back there again until something is taken care of. I really didn't need to deal with that last night. I was exhausted (mostly mentally) when I went to bed. I am trying to remember that this is a real blessing to this family and that it's only temporary. I get my focus turned inward and my attitude gets bad. :ohwell:
I am not sure what the plan is today. Maybe that's not a good way to start the day. lol. So far the boys are sleeping in. I am thinking about walking to the farmer's market to get fruits and veggies and then maybe getting in some sit ups, push ups, squats, lunges etc later. I usually go to the store on Thursdays but I don't want to go until we get something done with the car. I am also not sure about taking two kids to the store yet. lol.

Looking outward boogaloo!
MM

yoginimary

Walking to the Farmer's Market sounds wonderful, MM!

Enjoy Bunko CP - I don't know what it is either.

Got an appointment with the Physical therapist for Tuesday, so that will be fun.

Today, I'm teaching, cleaning, walking, and probably doing some yoga tonight. We are going to leave early for Fort Worth tomorrow morning, since storms are predicted. We need the rain, but I hope it doesn't happen while I'm driving.

The PA sent home a "visit summary" from my appointment yesterday. I didn't look at it, but Charlie did. He said my blood pressure was really good 116/78, and he went on to mention some other stuff in the report. I asked if it had my weight on there. He said he didn't see it. hmmm. I saw it the report this morning, and there was the weight and BMI, right next to the blood pressure. What a sweetie.

Good lies, boogaloo.

yoginimary

I'm up early for a trip to Fort Worth. I think the storms are coming sooner than expected - ugh. Hopefully we'll make it without having to stop and wait for them to pass.

I'm going to get a quick walk in before we leave, so I can stay alert while driving. Will get some more exercise this afternoon.

Rain not storms, boogaloo.

mechanicmom

Safe travels Mary! Hope the storms go easy on you!

V, I hope you are having a good time!

CP, I hope you have a good day and are feeling well!

Well, I am glad it's Friday. I haven't been out much at all this week because of the car so I am looking forward to getting out and seeing some people again. I hope we get the car fixed this weekend because I am not much inclined to drive it until we do.
Since it's a rainy day I don't know what I am going to do. I might put a movie on for the boys later and get on the TM for awhile. I need to keep them busy, which is not something I'm very good at. Creativity is not my strong suit. At least not with kids.
I need to try to do better on my eating as well. It could be better. Thankfully I am still hovering around 151, whereas six months ago I would have been right back up around 155. So I feel like there is progress there.

Entertain me! boogaloo!
MM

cp005e

Hi everybody.

Mary, that was sweet/funny of your husband. MM, I hope you are enjoying your rainy day - we have had WAY too many of them lately! It was nice to see the sun today.

I got a call from my doc on the way home from work. Mostly good news - x-rays looked fine, bloodwork was basically normal. My B-12 was on the low end, though, so she wants me to start taking a supplement. So, maybe that will help - and, the facilities guy at work stopped by and said they're going to bring down another chair for me to try on Monday, so that might help to. But, basically we still don't know what exactly is going on. Darn. I'm glad there's nothing wrong with my spine, though!

Happy weekend! (boogaloo)

mechanicmom

CP, glad your xrays came back normal! That's good news! Did your doc give you a certain B-12 Supplement to take? I've been taking one called No-Shot. You dissolve two small pills under your tongue. A month supply is about $7.

I am getting ready to go to the store by myself. I haven't done that in a long time. We are back to one child for the weekend and Alex is loving it. :laugh: I am more relaxed myself.
Other than the store trip, we are going to try to fix the mustang (if it doesn't cost much), and clean house the house up. I may try to work out too, but I'm feeling pretty tired today.
Tomorrow we have church, lunch with friends, and possibly another visit with friends in the afternoon. It will be busy but fun!

Fun weekend boogaloo!
MM

yoginimary

Just had a rough night at the hotel - it was loud, the cheapness of the hotel made it so, no one was being obnoxious.

I'm up too late to make it to yoga, but there is a room here I could practice in, so I'll probably do that and walk on the treadmill.

Sleepy, boogaloo

mechanicmom

Where'd everyone go? I'm lonely.

We've had a busy day and I'm tired, but I think it's just getting started again. We went to church, had to do Sunday School because the teacher was sick, then met friends for lunch and walked around a mall. Just got home at 5pm and got a call that Jeremiah is probably coming tonight. It was suppose to be tomorrow night or Tuesday morning. It's okay but I'm a little bummed. I was looking forward to a relaxing evening and then getting a really good work out in tomorrow. This little guy interrupts me when I am trying to go to the bathroom so I don't think a work out is very doable. :ohwell: Maybe we'll take another walk to the park.
I was looking forward to goofing off this evening and doing my work tomorrow. But now I need to get caught up on laundry, vacuum, get dishes caught up, etc. Maybe I am learning to be more flexible because I wasn't bothered by the news. Or maybe I just expected it. :laugh:

Getting ready to go again boogaloo.
MM

yoginimary

I'm back from Fort Worth. Had a good time, though not as much exercise as I was expecting to get. Made it safely with no storms, my house was hit with some small hail though.

Need to get everything back to normal around the house, boogaloo.