Well here i am 25 years old 5'10" and cute as a button... except that i weigh 242lbs.
I can make a million and one excuses as to how i managed to get this big. I've had two kids....Ive been stressed.... my doctor put me on Prednisone (a terrible steroid) .... but the truth of the matter is i eat too much. I eat often and i dont eat well.
I always start the day off with the best of intentions and i do great while im at work. but by the end of the day either im hungry and cant wait so i snack while cooking THEN STILL eat a full meal, or i eat the candy that's in my apt because i have the 2 most spoiled sons on the planet. I keep throwing it away but somehow it always seems to find it's way back...
I'd be lying i didnt say that in all honesty the last 3 years have been especially hard on me. in fact ive gained 36 pounds since 2008. Ive moved 4x, serperated from and divorced a cheating husband, had a miscarriage, watched my mother fight breast cancer, and have been hospitalized later diagnosed with Crohn's.
There has been some light at the end of the tunnel. I met someone wonderful! So wonderful infact that i am going to marry him.
I cant bare the idea of being this big in my wedding photos. Im going to look at these pictures for the rest of my life. My kids may have them someday. I dont want to look at them with regret because of my size. I dont mind being a bigger girl, i just dont want to be the fat girl anymore.
So Wish me luck!!!!
65lbs in 11 months!!
05/10/2012!!!
