What did you hate most about being your heaviest weight?

dnthaveasn

Getting on an airplane and having to ask for a seatbelt extender. and then...even after that humiliation...having people move so they dont have to be near me.

I hate that! I hate all the looks people give you when you get the seatbelt extender.

My other one is that is still happening, is people always assuming I'm hungry :mad:

EvanR

Oh man, I don't think it's possible to pick just one.

I definitely have to second the amusement park rides and the clothes.

And being from a city where everyone goes to the beach ALL the time, not being able to go with them and feel comfortable.

pkgirrl

Outweighing my boyfriend, and the way clothes fit and my thighs chaffed. UGHHHH.

Jennjenn1974

1. Hating having my picture taken. I still try and avoid it as much as possible even now.
2. Having to take a deep breath before leaving the house because I'm ashamed to go out in public.
3. Crying in the shower after catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror. I still do this one sometimes.
4. Almost crying in the change room at a clothing store when I realize I should have left that really cute shirt on the hanger and not wasted my time trying it on. I should have know it wasn't going to fit properly anyway.
5. There are a few other ones but I'm not ready to admit them yet.

It all sounds really depressing when it's all written down. But I suppose it's all part of the journey to acknowledge your fears and try and finally do away with them.

healthyjen342

what DIDNT I hate at my heaviest weight...

Here's my top 8:

8) Feeling bad/mad/sad all the time...I was almost never positive...I was a very negative person..
7) Having my picture taken....I avoided cameras like the plague
6) Looking at pictures that I was in...Super embarrassing
5) Getting winded after walking from my car to my office
4) Sweating all the time...ALL THE TIME...
3) People looking at me when I ate or ordered something to eat
2) My shoes turning out to the side..like leaning out (you know what I'm talking about)
1) Wasting money on clothing I would buy..wait a few weeks to wear, and BOOM they didnt fit me anymore.

rharris86dc

I hated being considered a "big girl." When I was younger, I was in dance and very active, so I knew I wasn't supposed to be big. I hated hearing guys say that they like "big girls," and considering me a part of that group.

There's a lot more I hated, but that was the worst one.

picturesing

tmi. but shaving my stuff.

haha, YES!! Me too...it was turning into quite a workout!

-Boob sweat in the summer ...ladies (and maybe some men) you know what I mean!

I second these emotions....blind shaving is an art!!! :embarassed:
Years ago - went to Amusement Park with a friend - got on the roller coaster - they had to really shove that bar down....the worst was at the end they had to shove it in further for it to release and it couldn't go - I was too big. I squirmed and they shoved and after an eternity and a huge line waiting to get on they gave it one last - really hard shove and it released! :sad: That was the end of my a** going on rollercoasters for YEARS!
Oh and don't even get me started on photos! The RULE in my family is NO side shots or candids! I'm easing up on that rule - finally! Well on the candids anyway! "Not ready for the side shot yet Mr. DeMille"....LOL

Kanzaki3

My pants were really tight fitting at my heaviest weight but after shedding a few pounds, I'm feeling pretty good.

cdskates

I'm still there... And I hate that when I'm sitting, my stomach sticks out further than anything. I can't wear anything and have it hang right. It's just...depressing.

BillyPilgrim

Stretchmarks and not being able to pick a pair of jeans without making sure they covered up my belly.

FearOfFrying

When I got in the bath, the water got out

MisterDubs303

1. Being left out of my friends' active lives.
2. Feeling physically uncomfortable, even at rest - like a stuffed sausage ready to burst (sodium bloat?)
3. Feeling lethargic and depressed.
4. Feeling that my life would continue in a perpetual downward spiral of physical, social, and emotional hopelessness for the rest of my life.

But, thank God, something clicked, and I just did it. Yes, it's only been 5.5 months, but I've never stayed this committed and consistent to fulfilling a long-term task, health or otherwise. I feel so much better. I still have 80-90 pounds to go, but I actually have hope for a more fulfilling life now.

wintermama13

bump

oldhippy

having to ask for an extension belt when flying.:embarassed:

IrishEyes68

All of these responses are so great, I think that all of us have felt that a time or two.

This is good healing, and we get to leave it all behind.....

Lleldiranne

The comments from (well-meaning) relatives I didn't see often: "Last time I saw you, you were so fit and trim" or "wow, you've put on weight" or even "I've never seen you so fat".
OUCH

Missjulesdid

Realizing that even at Lane Bryant you are buying the LARGEST SIZE and wishing it was a little roomier.. Even though I'm only one size down from that, It feels a lot better being the SECOND LARGEST size than having to go find the biggest thing that will fit on your body... Can't wait until I don't HAVE to shop there anymore... though they do have cute clothes.

JD92

sitting or lying down ANYWHERE and having like forty million belly rolls sticking way up. still have perhaps ten million, but im working on it :grumble:

having no nice 'going-out' clothes. and even if i did, id still feel self conscious and that everyone was looking at me and judging me.

still have this problem too, probably always will - feeling like a hiefer beside my short stick thin friend. everyone looks big beside her, me even more so :frown:

not looking good in clothes.

feeling like i'll be alone for ever, because i was convinced NO guy could possibly ever go for the fatty i was/still am.

not being comfortable eating in public, because i was convinced people were thinking that i shouldnt be eating at all.

getting photos taken and looking a mess.

being heavier than every member of my family of five (im now the 2nd lightest!!)

thankfully i never had to deal with snide comments from friends or family. my mum and dad are actually really supportive of my weightloss, they are my biggest complimenters

Ocarina

1. Weighing more then my parents - including my dad who is a full grown 6'2'' male with a large build. And my husband's dad who is the same but lankier - THANKFULLY it only took a couple pounds to go under him.
2. Being in a family where EVERYONE and I mean EVERYONE - extended family included - are all fit and in shape and being the ONLY ONE who is not! Even my family reunion (75+ people) EVERYONE is fit and I'm the heaviest and fattest of them all! Those pictures were humiluating two years ago... I'm ready to blend in for the next ones like I usually did in the past.
3. All my clothes being extra-large and they are always out of stock on them too as I guess most people are this size???
4. Being 30-40 pounds heavier then my husband. I already am 3 inches taller then him.... I'd like to feel somewhat feminine compared to him.
5. Having fat stick out of my pants like a mushroom top and the stretch marks and the bigger sized everything. BLECH.
6. Feeling lethargic, in the way, ugly or blah looking, and it always taking so much effort to do anything!

These are just a few of the reasons why I'm loosing weight.

nudqt

Having to struggle to get into my Jag Convetible and using a seat belt extender to drive it.....

nudqt

Oh, also the flying with a seatbelt extender....

annacataldo

not being able to find bras in my size in stores and searching for hours online to find ones that look ok, only to get them in a cup smaller and 4" to small just so i can find the cuter ones, and then getting them and having them be hideous AND to small. Now I could probably order them in my size, but theyd still be hidious full coverage... cant wait to loose more!

RCKT82

trying to squeeze into a desk at school... everyone else had a good 8-10 inches of space between their stomachs and the desk top... not only did I make contact with my stomach, I oozed over the top.

Megan182

I was mortified when I went to an amusement park and the attendant had to help me hold the lap bar down and close it over my stomach. I'm not entirely sure if I'd even fit now but I'm on the way to make that change. I want to be able to ride whatever and not worry about if I will fit comfortably, or at all.

Neliel

Feeling like an embarrassment to myself and my boyfriend.

Just wondering what was running through someone's head about me when I saw them for the first time in years.

The way I looked so completely different to how I used to.

Having to wear huge, ugly bras.

Being too afraid to try on any new clothes.

Having developed this habit of always wearing my coat or jumper over my lap to hide my belly whenever I sat down... I still do this but i'm not AS afraid anymore.

jjhanlon

I hated that my jeans wore out between the thighs from rubbing together...and that I was wearing my roommate's post pregnancy jeans (we're talking immediately after giving birth)... I was 150 at my heaviest, which might not sound like a lot to taller people, but when you are just over 5' - it's a lot!

Karleyyy

Frog body. Or at least in my before picture, it looks as if I have a frog body. The worst for me is my face, I hated my face being fat. I don't think it is anymore but it was really depressing to me.

talula_rouge

Having to use the extender for airplane seat belts! Asking for one is horrible!

KierstyPants

1. i went to a fair and i couldnt fit into a ride. I'm not even THAT big, and that sucked.

2. fat face.ugh ew

3. pictures. NEVER wanted to be in them..

4. jeans ripping out cause i have fat legs.

oh wait, that's more than one.

mrmarius

the fact that i was soo close to 300 lbs. even though i didnt look that heavy i felt that way. my heavest ever was 297 and i lost about 20 then i got back up to 292 i was at 285 when i joined mfp.