Alterior Motivations

HannaSavannah

So my mother has been making major efforts to live a healthier lifestyle, lowering he cholesterol and losing weight. She's completely cut unnatural sugar from her diet etc. I thought this was a good thing and was quite happy for her. Then the other day in the car she told me she was incredibly excited to weigh herself the next morning as she expected she'd weigh 184 lbs. I currently weigh 182. This was a huge wake-up call. I am COMPLETELY aware of how childish this is but I cannot let her weigh less than me. I am only 20 years old! I am supposed to have the better body! So I have gotten back on the wagon, in a total frenzy in order to maintain my position as the smaller one. This is totally sick but I don't want the rest of my family to be smaller than me, my younger sister weighs about 15 lbs less, and this I think is fine, she is younger, but I can't accept my mother being smaller for some reason. Anybody else had to deal with the same problem? Or can make me feel better about it, because I feel realllllly shallow right about now.