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taylorlw20

I found this site going through all the apps on my iPhone, I've been looking to lose the extra weight that I have provided to myself. When I was in 3rd grade, I'd say, I started putting on the weight. My mother who despises to cook, went out and got whatever fast food sounded good that night. Obviously, at the age, I did not necessarily know what I was putting into my body nor could I refuse.
Starting at the age of 5, I joined a soccer league - "little league" if you will. Ever since, it's my passion. I made my way up being pushed by coaches and my father to be the best soccer player I could be and by the age of 14-15 I was already getting noticed by bigger people in the soccer chain! I was offered to travel all around the United States and play with the "big shots". At the time, I refused. Being pushed like I was, I came to realize that I no longer found joy in playing the game; I lost my love for the sport entirely. Ending of last year ( summer of 2010), I decided to quit soccer all together. I was 16 by this time and I have to say I was a bit crushed about the way things went down.
During those years of soccer, I was still on the chubby side, but I was in shape. I could jog, spirit, do all the exercises that was required of me. Now, I may not of been able to keep up with the others, but I did them. I felt if I was a good enough player, being in shape is just a bonus; I could still be an awesome player whether or not I was in shape - was all about how I carried myself on the field.
That same year I quit, I decided it was the best decision to start being home-schooled rather than going to school. I did this for many reasons - I was starting to get a bit down mentally, was just tired of life at this point. About 3-4 months into my junior/senior year of high school, I gained 40-50 pounds! I didn't even notice this change until I finally decided to leave the house. I had tried to put on my size 9 jeans (was still in junior jeans at this point) and could not fit into them! I was able to button them, but I had to lay on my bed to get that way; I felt terrible. I looked in the mirror and started noticing that my cheeks had gotten chubby, then I looked and saw I had that awful muffin top through my shirt, I looked down further and saw that my jeans looked incredibly tight around my thighs. You would of thought this would of been a wake up call, but truthfully, it wasn't.
Since I was around 12, I was diagnosed with a disease regarding my ovaries; which was also a problem on why I had always been a bit chubbier than most, also, the way my body is built doesn't help! Not long ago, I went to the doctor to be put on different pills and once I stepped on the scale it said I was 190 pounds! Wow! It took me back because I honestly didn't think I looked that I weighed that much. Being 5'4 at the age of 16 and weighing 190 pounds is extremely mind blowing and a dreadful feeling.
Here I am today, writing this, feeling a bit guilty as I notice and understand what is being written, I feel I still haven't had that true "wake up call" that people have to finally motivate themselves to get in a better healthy state. It's shameful to say that I haven't, but I've come to realize that I shouldn't wait for that one big wake up call to finally hit me so I can start doing the right things, I need to start right now! I need to start while I'm young so I can have that wonderful body that I feel I deserve. Exercising hasn't always been something I enjoy. The only thing I did enjoy that I got exercise in was playing my favorite sport, soccer. But having a dad as a body builder and being pushed extremely hard by him in all aspects of my health just turned me off of enjoying being healthy.
I graduated high school June 11th of this year (2011) and I figure this is my time; now is MY time. As I get ready to move here in a few weeks to a different environment and begin the journey of starting my freshmen year of college and celebrating my 17th birthday, I feel I should make changes to my life before the changes that have already taken place, take over me! So, here I start, right here, on this site.

I welcome all friends and I'll support you all as I'm sure you will gladly support me on this new life that we're making for ourselves !

pamfin

Welcome to MFP :flowerforyou:

Don't feel guilty, get logging in your diary and you'll start to see a change before you know it.

melinda6569

welcome to the MFP Family !! You will find all of the support you need. I am very impressed at your age you realized you need to make healty changes. feel free to add me as a friend..Good Luck on your Journey..

ladybugz_247

Welcome! your gonna find the motivation you need to get moving here Congrats on graduating!

i_love_vinegar

Good luck! You sound very strong despite everything that has happened. I believe in you, and hope the next time I read your story, it's the success story

i_love_vinegar

Good luck! You sound very strong despite everything that has happened. I believe in you, and hope the next time I read your story, it's the success story

sarahttini

Welcome...you joined a great circle of friends & support.

mobskee

I understand exactly what you mean by weight sneaking up on you. That happened to me too! All of a sudden I only have one pair of pants that fit me lol but I won't go buy a bigger size. Being a little overweight is something I have struggled with my whole life. I remember being a teenager and feeling the preasure. I used to starve myself and do all sorts of yo-yo dieting. I am now 33 years old and still having weight issues. My goal is to change my lifestyle because I am really of playing this game. I am hoping that this site will assist me in keeping track of how much I'm eating so that I can get used to eating healthier and smaller portions. Good luck to you!!!
BTW...out of all the aps this one is by far the best!