Forgiveness

Amberlin

I have been working at changing my life since last summer and boy has it been rough. After having a baby, March 2010, I made the commitment to shed the "baby weight" which was relatively easy to do. I had all the time to exercise and prepare healthy meals for myself and my family. In February, I went back to work and have since gained 15lbs. I am now struggling to shed that weight and the weight gained since College. This is the hard part. This is the weight I put on over 4 years, not just 9 months.

I am reallly hard on myself lately. Really wanting the weight to come off and fast. When I exercise I am always so mad at myself for letting it get away from me again. I am wishing I could run faster and it wouldn't feel like I am dragging a train. I just have a hard time sticking with this, when I am down I want to eat but I am down because I do eat.

I just wish I could relax and enjoy this process. I am beating myself up constantly. Why can't I just be ok with my weight and be ok that I am making changes.

Does anyone else deal with this?

How do we forgive ourselves for not starting sooner?

How do I get through the next 6 months to get to my goal?

Love MFP, thanks for giving me the opportunity to think out loud

Elleinnz

Oh boy - yes it is so easy to keep on being angry about things - but it will not change anything!! Looking at your stats you are doing really well - keep on reminding yourself of what you have achieved - and by just taking it one step at a time you will become that new person.....

Be kind to yourself - you are changing things around - it is stressful - you dont still need to beat yourself up about things that is in the past....... Personally I also dont look at this as the next 6 months - it needs to become your new life, otherwise you will be back in this postition again somewhere in the future.....

So - go back to where you were - and look at what you looked like - and how different you look now - and then visualise yourself in 3 months, 6 months - and start being proud of that girl!!

ldygator8

I agree- it's very hard. I get so discouraged when I look in the mirror. I'm the kind of person who works out...then looks in the mirror to see how skinny I look. That's why I really like this site- it tells me if I continue to eat like I did one day that I'll weigh...whatever in 5 weeks. Seeing that...satisfies my need to know RIGHT NOW how I'm doing. I really like tracking my foods I eat. I just take it one day at a time. You may have a bad day. Don't beat yourself up over it. But continue to check in so you can see how you're doing!

angelicdisgrace

Im pretty hard on myself lately. I want the weight to come off alot quicker. So I go to the gym push myself harder and even criticize myself. Just keep it up. You are already winning the war! Good luck.