may be wrong to some but it make sense to me.

bellinachuchina

I've been fat and I've been thin. One thing that always blew my mind was other people's reactions / responses to how MY body appeared. When I was "fat", everyone had to teach me "how to eat better". When I got thin, I was "too thin" --- just like how you're experiencing. The bottom line was that I started to think really hard about how the shape and size of MY body seemed SO IMPORTANT to OTHER PEOPLE!! AS IF IT WAS THEIR BUSINESS IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! First I'm too fat, then too thin, would I EVER be "just right"? And, obviously, I'm making everyone uncomfortable *somehow*.
It made me think of all the starlets in hollywood who are focused on by the media "SHE'S TOO THIN!" "Oprah gains wait back" or whatever. All that constant gauging of OTHER PEOPLE'S WEIGHT -- especially WOMEN's weight -- is a way to keep women "in line" so to speak; it's a way to keep people "under control". You know, "don't get too big for your britches"-type stuff. "Don't get COCKY". Stay in your place (in the shadows). Don't claim your place in the sun (in fact, how DARE you? Who do you thnk you are anyway?).

see what i mean?

anyway--- the truth of the matter is that when you change yourself, other people are thrown off. Who cares! Throw 'em off!

Perfectly stated! You have done a spectacular job, Nikki, and not many have the strength to accomplish what you have!!!

ppiinnkkmmoonn

thanks for the love guys!!!