The Demon called "Binge"

bigfatbino

I would normally be cursing myself and shaming my lack of will at the moment. But no. I refuse to do so. I choose to instead admit that I succumbed today to a weakness. Despite 80 minutes of walking, and carefully watching the calories for the day, I ended up eating half a box of pasta, 1/2 a large pepperoni pizza, and 12 chicken wings, and 2 bottles of wine. Wow....it really does look worse in print than when the delivery guy brings it.

The daily calories (in case you're wondering), come out to over 4,000. Yup that's Four-THOUSAND. My allotment is just a shade over 1,500. You do the math

But I will not dwell on thoughts of how weak I am. I KNOW I am weak, and realizing weakness exists is one key step in identifying how to overcome it. I have been thinking to myself "Why did I do this?, WHY?" And the answer is deceptively simple. I invoked this demon by doing something I'm sure other's must have done before. I made the dreadful mistake of:

SKIPPING BREAKFAST

That's where it started. I woke up late, had things to do, and instead of a jump start workout and a substantial breakfast, I skipped both. I felt the call of pizza around 6:00 pm when I was at the store, and by the time I got home, I was ravenous, in a soul-ravaging, vampiric sort of way. I NEEDED pizza and wings (in my mind).

Now, with the craving abated, the half eaten box in the fridge, and chicken bones in the styrofoam container in the trash, I could succumb to guilt, moping, and the feelings of failure that so easily come after being gripped by the demon we all know as "Binge".

But this time, I refuse. I acknowledge my slip and fall. And I will not "punish" myself tomorrow for it through starvation or insane and potentially dangerous gym/exercise time. No. I will defeat this plague by eating a healthy breakfast, and continuing on my path of just 10 minutes of morning stretches and exercise to get the blood pumping.

I lost today. Granted. Demon, take your victory pounds for today. I'm sure we'll meet again in the future, and next time, I will defeat you because I am only as weak as I decide to be.

CuteAndCurvy83

wow really well written. Forget the idea that tomorrow is a new day, 60 seconds from new is a new Minute! We can over come this demon little by little,and soon he will be just a little memory.

PurpleStarKatz

Definitely well said. I myself at like crap today as well. Unfortunately at this point my stomach is unhappy because of that crappy food... But like you said, tomorrow is a new day. =]

whisperingdragon

I wish you the best, and only the best. :flowerforyou: