Recovering, adapting

dragonbug300

I'm kind of struggling with quite a lot right now. Stress levels are through the roof. I spent 4 days in a hospital, and over a week on bedrest. I'm using crutches, can hardly exercise at all, but I have been overeating by around 1000 calories every day. I've gained even more weight. Every time I start to be able to control my eating, I see the new rolls in my stomach and get depressed, demotivated, and immediately fall off track.

Has anyone else been in this sort of position? How would you pull yourself out of this funk?

AnnaValek

Instead of looking at those rolls as a disgusting part of yourself, see them as merely a part of yourself that you wish to change. Everyone everywhere should always be in a constant state of improvement. You are perfectly fine as you are and are just working for a different kind of perfect. Transitioning to the "new" you might involve a lot of hard work, but it will be worth it to no longer have those rolls. You can live fine with them, but you want to be without them. So work for it. If you're trying, then no one's opinion about how you look will matter, because it's invalid. They're commenting/looking at you in a transitional period, which means they are seeing the "new" you in the making.

JDMPWR

I have. I think of me at my worst and think do I want to get to that point again and I have also at my worst thought do I want to get better or see myself go down this path further? Then I start with baby steps, little by little.

I know you can do this and you know you can as well. Don't turn a physical view of yourself into a mental one, if that makes sense. Separate the two and learn that your physical view should not be your mental view!

paced2day

Dragonbug!- The best possible version of yourself is not necessarily the skinny six-packed version. I can hardly believe that your stomach is "rolling" after looking up your diary. You slouching?:huh: I've been in your position, maybe even more than you know. When my diseases are in remission weight control/loss is simple, but when I'm in a flare or stress aggravates my symptoms its not. When you don't feel good, its really hard not to try to find physical satisfaction in food. We also forget the effects of illness, medication, recovery, on metabolism. For example, IV Fluids packed with saline that create water retention and subsequent weight gain would be just one. On top of that, who really understand all that the body needs and has to do to heal itself? When I'm feeling bad, I realize its time to look inside, work on my character, my relationships, doing something for someone else--- and doing those things I lose the time that I would normally spend focusing on food or this unreachable unsatisfiable desire for physical satisfaction. Then you acheive two goals, you are working towards a better version of yourself and you a gaining control over any unhealthy obsession with food.