Just Needed to Vent. Urgh. Some days this is sooo frustratin

nisharae

So,

I guess Im just venting b/c Im uber frustrated that this weight is just not coming off.... I've been working my butt off, staying under on Sodium, under on calories, drinking water... MFP says I should way like 149 in 5 weeks and I just gained (in two days) 1.5 pounds... What. the. heck.?

Im mad too b/c my birthday is Monday and I dont even feel like celebrating, why would I celebrate when I've not gotten to the weight I want to get to? Its like Celebrating failure. So not worth it.

I want to push myself harder and breakthrough this, but my knee has been starting to twinge lately and I was told by a trainer I was overtraining and to take it easy, so Im trying to do less impacting things, while still burning large amounts of cals, so maybe this stubborn fat will leave me for good...

I even took the weekend "off" of heavy exercise... but I was under my cals, and still ended up gaining weight? To top it off, I tried to get back on the exercise wagon yesterday, after taking my break and now I have to push myself sooooo hard, b/c its like in two days my body forgot what it was like to work out.... Grrrrr.....

I will keep pushing through this, there is no doubt in my mind about that, it just sucks, that yes, I may have lost 70 pounds. But Im still chunky, and have another 20 ish to loose. I was hoping to be in the high 150's even settle for 162 on my b-day... Hoping the 162 will happen.. but geez....

So dissappointing, another year that Im not where I wanted to be, guess Im closer than I ever was, but still it sucks. Yup.

As I said, just venting, hoping someone on here can relate? Urgh. I am so not happy with myself at the current moment. But I will push through, and I will get there. Going home August 12th, maybe, just maybe I'll look halfway decent. If not, i guess nothing changes, even when I work my butt off to make it change.

Grimmerick

Hope you're feeling better, if you want to know what I did to bust through my most recent plateau I would be glad to help, just shoot me a message.

hunterzmomma

you are doing amazing!! the last pounds are the hardest.... just relax and know that it will happen when it happens and just go with the flow, easier said than done but no point getting worked up about something you can't change, look how much you already lost!!! WTG!!

ak_in_ak

I highly doubt you gained two pounds of fat, so don't stress over it. Maybe you should try eating a bit more and cutting dairy does wonders for people! reguardless, you are doing great and keep it up!

Ver0n1ca

If I am doing the math right then MFP is estimating a drop of over 2 lbs per week based on your current calorie calculations. Is it possible that you are in starvation mode because your calories are too low, especially considering how much gym time you are putting in?

barbiex3

hun. i took a peak at your diary, and you are not eating enough for your intense workout days. You NEED to eat more on days you burn 1800 calories... If your going to burn like crazy, be prepared to eat like crazy. You need to treat your body right! I was stuck at 135 for over a month because I was burning around 1000 calories a day and eating around 1400 calories a day. NOT HEALTHY. I upped my calories and lost 4 pounds in a week and a half. I know it doesn't make sense, but you NEED to eat more!

jtp5184

i am sorry you're feeling frustrated

i understand the scale hasnt moved for me at all. But i found that by actually enjoying something it is easier to focus on your love for that then on dieting itself.

i started running and actually the scale went up! BUT i still feel really good because i see improvements in my run and therefore i know my fitness is improving. Its easier to push myself to run another half mile then it is to sit there and agonize over the scale. I feel i have complete control of my running, when i choose to go, how long or how hard i want to push myself. the scale i just dont get that kind of satisfaction.

hope this helps

barbiex3

hun. i took a peak at your diary, and you are not eating enough for your intense workout days. You NEED to eat more on days you burn 1800 calories... If your going to burn like crazy, be prepared to eat like crazy. You need to treat your body right! I was stuck at 135 for over a month because I was burning around 1000 calories a day and eating around 1400 calories a day. NOT HEALTHY. I upped my calories and lost 4 pounds in a week and a half. I know it doesn't make sense, but you NEED to eat more!

and actually on days you are working out your netting around 0 calories... that is NOT healthy at all. Please eat more =P

nisharae

I did try at one point a few weeks back to eat back all my excersize cals.. I put away my scale for TWO WEEKS and ate back that which I worked off.. at the end of the 2 weeks I GAINED!!! After that I cut my cals back to roughly 1500-1800 / day and started loosing again.... Last week, so Im not sure what happened it was working well... I just feel like Im in a time crunch now, and I feel like eating more isn't going to help, but maybe I'll try to up it by just a bit and see if that helps.... *takes deep breath* I'll see if a few more days of this doesn't kick this in the butt.. otherwise I may have to option for plan b

_Sally_

Im mad too b/c my birthday is Monday and I dont even feel like celebrating, why would I celebrate when I've not gotten to the weight I want to get to? Its like Celebrating failure. So not worth it.

This emotion is very understandable... we all go through dark times. I would encourage you to not confuse self-worth and self-love with a number on a scale. You are worth celebrating and nurturing. Always. No matter what. Don't forget.

Talk to yourself and treat yourself like you would talk to a good friend. Be encouraging and supportive... don't tear your friend down - won't help - could hurt.

You will get past this. Have a good night's sleep and treat tomorrow like a brand new day.

luvgreen25

Not sure if you're looking for feedback or not, but I'm giving it anyway. :happy:

First - I can totally relate. I had a mini goal weight in mind for when I went on vacation and I was 5 pounds over that. I just want to mention - that 5 pounds had been taunting me for almost 3 months. I was so disappointed in myself. How could I not lose 5 measly pounds in 3 months?? I stayed within my calories, I exercised my butt off, I drank gallons of water, I did everything I was supposed to do, how could it still be there? So I went on my vacation disappointed in myself. While on vacation, I wore the new clothes I bought, got compliments on how good I looked, and my attitude started turning around. I didn't "record" what I was eating, but I made healthy choices. At least for the most part. Every night, I had dessert and some alcoholic beverages. I thoroughly enjoyed my vacation. When I got back, I weighed in and gained a pound. I immediately got back on track and the following week - I lost 6.5 pounds. I was more than thrilled. I think I just needed to shock my body.

Second - I think it's important to eat AT LEAST your minimum calories. And with the exercise - you should be eating some of your exercise calories back. I have had tons of people tell me that and once I started eating some of my calories back, I started losing. I don't typically lose a pound a week, but something is better than nothing, and nothing is better than gaining!

Keep your chin up. You'll get there. Enjoy your birthday! You've lost 69 pounds - that's something to celebrate!

nisharae

Also, anyone think the fact Im over on protein a lot could be a bad thing? Generally Im

- always over on sugar (thanks to fruit)
- under carbs
- under fat
- around zero/ under sodium
- over protein.

? Just wondering if switching some of my macronutrients wouldn't help some of this.. I know the sugar thing isn't the best, just not quite sure what to do about it... Its low cal food that I like... What else would I eat instead thats low cal (i eat veggies later in the day) Also, is it true dairy can make you gain weight?

Curious. Thanks All!

Comfortableme

I was doing realy great. Then I decided to give myself a goal weight for my birthday. I did not make that goal and began having serious doubts about what I was doing. I really started to get a negative attitude and did not lose anything for about a month. I realized that, for me, I was sabotaging myself and being very hard on myself. So, I didn't make it to my self determined weight for my birthday...the only person that I was hurting by hanging on to that resentment was myself. I have since realized that I need to make sure I am eating enough, drinking enough water, and moving. Some days are better than others and I can exercise alot, and other days getting 15 minutes of walking or very virgious housecleaning are all I can fit in. What ever I do, I am healthier than I was last year at this time and for that I am very grateful to my fellow MFP pals that help keep me up when I start to slip into a downward negative attitude. Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself. Think of all the lbs of potatoes that you are not carrying around on a daily basis.