So, I'm all about schedules, if they get messed up I'm not a happy camper. I do the same thing every day right down to the second. The last two days my schedule has been messed up. What takes the back seat? That's right, my workouts. I'm so frustrated with this wall, I always seem to hit, and even more frustrated with myself for letting this wall get in the way of my goals. I usually try to look on the brightside and hate negativity. But this is how it usually starts. My schedule gets off track for anymore than two days and it takes forever to get back on track.
I also hate placing blame, but my husband is the culprit here. Yesterday I ask him to come straight home after taking the kids to the busstop, but he stands at the busstop to chat for a half an hour. So by the time he gets home I don't have time for my workout and a shower before he heads to work. Last night was a bad night, was up with the kids a couple times and when they woke this morning I was so tired I asked my husband to let me sleep in for an hour, well he thought he was being nice and let me sleep for two. So again no time for workout. While I'm showering he goes and puts the baby down for a nap, an hour early than normal (damn schedule again), so baby's up already. I just feel that the only time I really succeeded on the weight loss was when I had 100% support from him. This time he doesn't really seem into it, so he doesn't understand when I get mad. Sure they're little things, but for me the little things take time away from my day that I can't get back.
So. I'm already in a mood, I go weigh myself (stupid), it says I've gained the six lbs back that I've lost over the last couple of weeks, even my pants seem more snug today. I know it's not possible to gain that much weight back so quickly but it's a bit discouraging. A long vent I know, but I am just so damn frustrated, I don't want to give up, but this is how the cycle seems to start for me.