Once and for all.

SummerSkinn

Hi,
My name is Nickii, I'm twenty years old and I'm gaining weight rapidly. I do realize that this is all in my control, but I have poor very motivation (I'm just lazy). I moved from Kansas to West Virginia when I graduated high school to move in with my boyfriend of 3 years, and this is when I started noticeably getting fatter. I have never been super skinny in my life but there were somethings I was happy about. I use to have such skinny legs and arms and my tummy only had a slight lump in it, but now my thighs are touching and my arms are getting flabby and when I sit my fat rolls onto itself into a frown, this was the first thing I've noticed, but today I have come to a realization as to how bad I'm really getting...
I drew out a tattoo that I've been wanting for a while and stripped down to tape it where I wanted it, on my shoulder. I took a picture in the mirror and when I looked at it, and broke down into tears. My back side looks completely disgusting. I've always been extremely self-conscious about my back, I've had love handles since I can remember, not only that but I have a horrible case of scoliosis, so I always try my best not to look at myself from behind and not think about it. When I looked at that picture I saw with new eyes back rolls right under my bra and my "love handles" have doubled in size. I cried and felt sorry for myself, and then began thinking about it and came to a conclusion. I've had enough. I'm going to get rid of this fat once and for all. I looked around the internet and found this site. I feel like you guys can help me out a lot, with my laziness and help me keep on track. If you have any tips or advice I'd gladly hear it!