Confession......

punk_mama

I am not as happy as people think. I put on an awesome mask and I am tired of it!!! At work I have had patients tell me I motivate/inspire them. I give really good practical advice that my patients love, I am there for them and they know that. That's the only thing that's real. The people I work with think I am happy go lucky all the time. I am so freakin' helpful and nice to people, If i were someone else I would want to punch me in the face!!!!
Last night at work it was a hard crazy night. I seriously went above and beyond doing this and that volunteering to help out where I could in-between my regular duties.(I do this a lot) I do these things because I want to help and I figure something good will come from my good hard work. Karma anyone? Well this morning I realized no one thanked me for my extra work and I feel like they were just taking advantage. It really made me feel like crap, I cried this morning. I felt like crap, so I ate like crap. Mind you I never really saw my self as am emotional eater but I see it now that I log everything.

I wonder when nurses turn in to queens? Did you know they are better than you because they push narcotics and zofran? I will never be like them!!! I became a CNA to understand what people under me have to deal with. I am doing this to be a great nurse someday. I hope I won't make someone regret helping me someday. I am beginning to resent my co-workers.

No sure what I am trying to get at here. My head feels a little messed up right now and needed to let it out somewhere.

starkid120

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way!! *HUGS* No matter what field you're in, sometimes co-workers can be the worst...

Health professionals are special people who do jobs that not everyone can...I know I wanted to be one, but I couldn't do it. Thank you for all your hard work. You really are appreciated.

catgirl711

I know exactly how you feel! I am a CNA at a local hospital and I've felt like the nurse's take advantage of us a lot too. It just depends on the night. I'm in school to be a nurse and I'm hoping to take my CNA experiences and shape them to make me a better nurse. It's painful sometimes, no appreciation really sucks. I've been there too but I know what helps me is remembering that when I go home every morning that i can leave anything bad that happened at work, at work and just be happy at home. Remember your goals when you're having awful days like that. If they only happen once in a blue moon then you'll probably be ok but if they happen more often you don't want an occasionally bad workplace environment to ruin the hardwork that you're putting into yourself.
Remember your goals!!
I'm sorry you had a really bad night and I hope it gets better
**sending the love**
~Caitlin