I really hate the holidays

FitJoani

I know I already posted saying how blue I am as of recently and I really need to break out of it. Today was a better day. I tried to feel great about the day and did ok I guess. I am really "faking it" I read about faking it till I feel it. I am dreading holidays this year. I know I am NOT going to be in the mood to deal with any parties, and I dont wanna dissapoint anyone. Heck I haven't really been on here with y'all recently. I got back in the swing today. I started to retrack and workout more(until this dumb cold passes) I slipped off and want to get back on big time. Maybe those endorphins and seretonins will help me along the way. I also am dreading sat. My BF says we need to discuss somethings, but we ALL know what that means so hopefully it will just be about my sadness recently(thats what he said its about) I hope all is ok and will be ok, but I shall keep you all updated, keep me in your prayers!!!!

FitJoani

I know I already posted saying how blue I am as of recently and I really need to break out of it. Today was a better day. I tried to feel great about the day and did ok I guess. I am really "faking it" I read about faking it till I feel it. I am dreading holidays this year. I know I am NOT going to be in the mood to deal with any parties, and I dont wanna dissapoint anyone. Heck I haven't really been on here with y'all recently. I got back in the swing today. I started to retrack and workout more(until this dumb cold passes) I slipped off and want to get back on big time. Maybe those endorphins and seretonins will help me along the way. I also am dreading sat. My BF says we need to discuss somethings, but we ALL know what that means so hopefully it will just be about my sadness recently(thats what he said its about) I hope all is ok and will be ok, but I shall keep you all updated, keep me in your prayers!!!!

BrandNewLaura

Awww Joani...I am sorry to hear things aren't going well for you...but 74 pounds is a LOT to lose and you have a lot to be proud of...I don't always believe in the "fake it til you make it" philosophy, but please do whatever it takes to get back on track with your calories and exercise...I know how hard you've worked and I'd hate to see all that hard work go to waste...if you need to post on here every day for someone to give you a cyber hug or a virtual kick in the pants (whichever you need most that day) then do it...if you need to see your doctor to see if something is wrong then do it...whatever it takes, do it...you are worth it! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers!

age1389

Why so down:flowerforyou: Smile till it hurts
BTW your looking great




-Adrienne

bonnykate

don't get down! this too shall pass

good luck - i hope everything gets better soon. you're doing GREAT!!!!

ChubbyBunny

Just checkin in to make sure you are doing okay.
:flowerforyou:

songbyrdsweet

I hate the holidays too...and winter...as a season it just sucks, and I feel like the holidays are totally useless after working in retail for several years. People just get so greedy and grumpy. Don't even get me started on the 8 hours of fricking Christmas music.

I don't see a point in faking it, but there's no need to wallow in it either. I try to find humor in some things (bratty kids who 'I want I want I want wahhhh' in the store, spraying windshield fluid on accident and having it freeze on contact, stuff like that). I think it definitely helps to get out without thinking about it too much. As soon as I think of how cold it'll be, or how dark when I get done, I don't want to go. But when I just hop out of my chair and go, I get it done and feel much better. Having cozy stuff to wear like Under Armour or something similar makes it more comfortable to be outside so you can get some sunlight. I feel pretty poopy if I'm cooped up inside.

My bf noticed when I was having problems coping with my stress, and gently suggested that I go talk to someone. He was supportive but it was still difficult at times, can't lie about that. Sometimes we are hardest on the people closest to us, but they're close to us because they care and know that we'll get back to our happy selves. :flowerforyou: