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hnodine
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Hello,
My name is Heath. Throughout my life, I gradually gained weight. I was never obese, but definitely not healthy. I have always been a shy guy who hid behind what people thought about me. As you see by my profile picture, I'm certainly NOT handsome by no means. How I got my beautiful wife is still beyond me...haha. But due to my weight, I've always had low self esteem. In 2008, I looked into the mirror and said "no more." I weighed 230 lbs and was 6 feet tall. I had so much motivation that I instantly went on a diet and joined a 24/7 gym. In just a few months, I dropped down to 170 lbs. I was beyond happy with how I looked, especially for my height.
But I soon got into a mentality of "This (insert fatty food) won't hurt me." I used that excuse every day until now, and it slowly made me gain my weight back, and then some. As I type this, I sit here at 250lbs. I am ashamed of myself. I look at old pictures from 2008 and ask myself how I let myself go. During the past few years I have tried to start a diet. Most lasting only a few days or a week. I would let my busy-ness keep me from going to a gym and eating right. I just married my best friend Christy who I have been with for 5 years. She is thin and beautiful. I don't want to be this weight, or worse...gain more. Even though I will also have to look at my fat self in our wedding photos, I know that I can improve my health once again.
My biggest struggle has been maintaining my motivation. Even as I type now, I question if I can keep this motivation going. I question if this is just going to be another failed attempt. I don't want it to be. I want to be happy with myself once again. I know that if I am happy with who I am, I can provide a happier life for my wife. I just don't want to be sad anymore. I want to be able to fit in the clothes I have crammed in my closet that no longer fit me. I am ready to do this...and ready to defeat the weight.
My name is Heath. Throughout my life, I gradually gained weight. I was never obese, but definitely not healthy. I have always been a shy guy who hid behind what people thought about me. As you see by my profile picture, I'm certainly NOT handsome by no means. How I got my beautiful wife is still beyond me...haha. But due to my weight, I've always had low self esteem. In 2008, I looked into the mirror and said "no more." I weighed 230 lbs and was 6 feet tall. I had so much motivation that I instantly went on a diet and joined a 24/7 gym. In just a few months, I dropped down to 170 lbs. I was beyond happy with how I looked, especially for my height.
But I soon got into a mentality of "This (insert fatty food) won't hurt me." I used that excuse every day until now, and it slowly made me gain my weight back, and then some. As I type this, I sit here at 250lbs. I am ashamed of myself. I look at old pictures from 2008 and ask myself how I let myself go. During the past few years I have tried to start a diet. Most lasting only a few days or a week. I would let my busy-ness keep me from going to a gym and eating right. I just married my best friend Christy who I have been with for 5 years. She is thin and beautiful. I don't want to be this weight, or worse...gain more. Even though I will also have to look at my fat self in our wedding photos, I know that I can improve my health once again.
My biggest struggle has been maintaining my motivation. Even as I type now, I question if I can keep this motivation going. I question if this is just going to be another failed attempt. I don't want it to be. I want to be happy with myself once again. I know that if I am happy with who I am, I can provide a happier life for my wife. I just don't want to be sad anymore. I want to be able to fit in the clothes I have crammed in my closet that no longer fit me. I am ready to do this...and ready to defeat the weight.
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You CAN do this!!! Welcome to MFP!!! Add me as a friend if you like. This site and the friends that I have made here have kept me going. I am 5'11" and I am heavier than you at THIS point in time. NOT FOR LONG though, hope you can keep up... LOL0
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