Please help me - I need to find my way.....again :(

canadagoose

Hi! My name is Andrea. I've spent most of my life losing and gaining weight. For at least 3 out of 4 decades I have been on this emotional treadmill. I could probably tell you exactly what my weight was at any given point in my life. My high and low points have gotten more out of hand since I've had kids. My husband and I have two boys ages 11 and 9. My highest weight 4 years ago was 228. I lost 88 lbs. Then of course gained 71 lbs back again. Most recently I went from 211 down to 153 - in about 14 months. I have been dilligently recording in a notebook and on MFP all food and excercise. Now I feel I can't get it together for more than a day or two at a time. I'm simply going thru the motions and just recording all of my overeating like it was nothing! I feel worse by the day and can feel every ounce of the 10 lbs I have put back on in the last 6 - 7 weeks. To say I loathe myself right now is an understatement. If sugar was a drug like alcohol or heroin I would totally be drunk or stoned right now and that's not working either.

I so don't want to go there again.... but all of the old eating patterns are there.You know - I'll just have this and get back on track...Oh, I better have this too.... and this! I did not deprive myself thru my weightloss to my estimation. I treated myself occasionally and lost the weight slowly and sensibly.

Does anybody have any inspiring thoughts? Please help me I'm lost!

audram420

gotta take it one day at a time girl...hang in there you can do it!!

pitbullmama

You are doing a phenominal job! I can't wait till I have lost what you have. I have also been on that roller coaster for decades now and its time to get off the ride. If you would like to have some support along the way, please feel free to add me. Don't give up, just take it one day at a time.

lmelangley

Not sure if I can be inspiring, but feel free to add me as a friend if you'd like someone to be supportive during your journey. I guess my thought is that if you really want to do this, you've got to be committed to doing it long term. For me personally, I find that only allowing myself treats if I've eaten well for the past few days AND I have the calories to spare a certain day works well. But, I know that doesn't work for others. I've heard some say the secret is to cut out all treats. That doesn't work for me because I don't look at this as a diet - I look at it as a way to improve my health so that I can be around longer for my husband and my children. I think you need to find what motivates you, and to decide if you can be an occasional treat person. Your first thing, though, is to stop loathing yourself. It's ok to loathe the weight gain, but remember that you are a strong, intelligent person and worthy of respect. Respect yourself and be good to yourself. If you have treats in the house for your husband and kids, start buying stuff they like but you don't really care for. Buy yourself something treat-worthy. Maybe fruit that's a little more costly than you'd normally spend on yourself. YOU ARE WORTH IT!!

MamaBear57

What I am trying to do when I get in that frame of mind is try to take a little break and think about why I am tyring to loose weight. Reflecting helps me regenerate my confidence in this EXTREMELY hard process. You can do it!!! That is why you posted. The people on this site and in your life want you to be successful. STAY STRONG!!!

aftonhicks

Andrea,
You have to do this for yourself! Keep in mind that you are doing this to be healthy and to see your precious boys grow up. Don't think of it as dieting but as a lifestyle change--take it day by day. We are not perfect creatures, and you should not strive to be perfect; however, there is nothing wrong with perfecting ourselves! I hope this helps and don't give up!

splashwags

One day at a time, but i think you need to dig a bit deeper to understand why you are yo yo-ing. Some ideas to get you back on track:

Post pix of slender you on the fridge, the cabinets as reminder of what you want.
stop and ask yourself if you are really hungry
Log how you feel when you are eating...

Good luck and hang in

hazelnutflav

If you're sick and tired of starting over, you have got to stop quitting!!

Olivia1977

It's a lifestyle not a diet.
It takes 3500 extra calories to gain a pound. ( So one or two days of overeating probably won't hurt you too much as long as you get back on the wagon.)
One day is just one day.
You are worth it.
We all have bad days.

nicbic123

just a suggestion, maybe if you could PLAN a treat? i know only too well that this is easier to say than to do, but if you have something to look forward to say at the end of the week (only if you've stuck to eating well and exercise for the 1st 6 days) then i think then you feel less deprived, and it is also a little reward for all the hard work you have put in already, anyway try it, it may work it may not good luck & feel free to add me if you like

Nikki x

Tonilynn70

I have the same problem. I start and then quit and start and quit.. its hard to make changes. But get up every morning and look at yourself in the mirror...in the eyes like you were talking to your best friend and tell that person they are worth the effort, the hard work.
I do, everyday, and I remind myself when I have a bad day that its ok. And if I fall off the wagon I get back on.

You deseirve this and you are worth it. :-)