Here's a brief version of my story:
I started MFP last Nov. at 197 lbs (Heaviest I've ever been sans being pregnant). By May I was down to 177. 6 months later I am all the way up to 209.
I've been at least giving it a try for the last couple of weeks, but I'm having such a hard time.
First and foremost: Christmas cookies are KILLING me. I think I've had enough of them at this point though that I'd be ok if I didn't see another one until NEXT Christmas so I'm hoping I've over-cookied myself to the point where it's a non-issue.
Secondly: For the last 3 months or so... I have this urge to eat until I'm completely STUFFED. Which I know is not the way you're supposed to eat but I just can't seem to help myself. I'll eat a reasonable portion of my dinner, try to wait 20 minutes, make it about 5 and say "screw it" and I go get another plate, even though I'm not hungry anymore. I'm not entirely sure what to do about that. I try to chew slower, but I can't concentrate on it long enough to make it through the whole meal, I try to wait at least 20 minutes before deciding whether or not I really need more food, but it's like an obsession. I just sit there and think about it until I finally give up and go get more food.
I'm not sure what to do at this point. I don't really know how to fix this. Especially with the holidays in full bloom.
BUT I can't do this to myself anymore. I can't afford new cloths and mine are all too small on me now except my big baggy sweatshirts so that's all I wear. I figure "well, I already look terrible, might as well just throw my hair in a pony tail. Oh, and makeup? What's the point."
It's getting me pretty depressed and I need help!
If anyone has any advice I'd really appreciate it! I need to get out of this slump!