:( Gluuuuugh

Phoenixflame

Ok...not quite a typical Phoenixflame post.

So like, a guy in my hallway is leaving and won't be coming back next semester, so a big group of us all went to this diner (Mel's). 'Twas 12:00ish. I really can't decide on anything, since everything looked pretty greasy. And I also realized, for the first time, that I'd feel rather awkward saying "Um, don't cook that with oil." I never feel that way when I'm with just a few friends. Everybody's ordering burgers and fries and malts. So, I ordered a "lowfat vanilla yogurt shake." I am hardly under any illusion that it is low in calories. And when I got it, it tasted delicious. But within a bite I was feeling guilty as hell.

This distresses me. I'm all for indulging and enjoying yourself. I know why I felt especially guilty--it was so cold and rainy today, and I got hit with a bunch of deadlines, that I didn't make it to the gym.

I'd been at about 1142 calories and planning on a late night snack. A bit of a low day for me, because I was sitting at my desk for most of it, doing work (it's exam time). But not a big@ss yogurt shake snack!

How much damage do you think I did?

I guess I'm also distressed because I wanted to enjoy my yogurt shake. Yeah, it was a big thing of cheap diner deliciousness. But the guilt left a sour taste in my mouth.

Phoenixflame

Ok...not quite a typical Phoenixflame post.

So like, a guy in my hallway is leaving and won't be coming back next semester, so a big group of us all went to this diner (Mel's). 'Twas 12:00ish. I really can't decide on anything, since everything looked pretty greasy. And I also realized, for the first time, that I'd feel rather awkward saying "Um, don't cook that with oil." I never feel that way when I'm with just a few friends. Everybody's ordering burgers and fries and malts. So, I ordered a "lowfat vanilla yogurt shake." I am hardly under any illusion that it is low in calories. And when I got it, it tasted delicious. But within a bite I was feeling guilty as hell.

This distresses me. I'm all for indulging and enjoying yourself. I know why I felt especially guilty--it was so cold and rainy today, and I got hit with a bunch of deadlines, that I didn't make it to the gym.

I'd been at about 1142 calories and planning on a late night snack. A bit of a low day for me, because I was sitting at my desk for most of it, doing work (it's exam time). But not a big@ss yogurt shake snack!

How much damage do you think I did?

I guess I'm also distressed because I wanted to enjoy my yogurt shake. Yeah, it was a big thing of cheap diner deliciousness. But the guilt left a sour taste in my mouth.

3babybeans

You didn't do any damage. You had a shake, you knew it was an indulgance, you didn't order a second or a burger to wash it down with. You KNEW what you were doing & that is a HUGE thing. Self-awareness is a giant step, PF. Plus, it IS exam time (my husband is currently cramming in the basement) so cut yourself some slack in the food & exercise department. You have enough to worry about & since you are now very aware of your exercise & food habits, after next week you'll be right back up on the health wagon eating right & exercising frequently. You'll be just fine! I am sorry that you didn't enjoy your shake, though!

Phoenixflame

Thank you so much for the support! You've truly made me feel better.

sapphyre0702

You should feel happy about your choice not sad. You went to a diner, late at night, during exams and chose probably the healthiest thing on the menu.

There is nothing wrong with that, and I think it shows tremendous strength and dedication.

Be proud of your choice. It was a good one, and you should think back to that shake and only think happy thoughts!!!

melissa91971

I'm with sapphyre, You should not feel guilty but proud. I think it was a good choice you got to indulge a little but still kept it fairly healthy. Be happy for your choice and move on.