I think I'm developing bulimia.

elksy

I'm embarrassed to be posting this....

I never used to have a problem with food, but lately I've been binge eating. To deal with the guilt, I've recently started purging. I promised myself I would stop after the third time in a week, and I did for a few days, and then today I did it again. Ugh.

I want to develop healthy eating habits. Does anyone have advice?

chubswonky

You might want to look into talking to a professional about it and nipping it in the bud before it becomes a major issue for you.

elksy

Thanks for responding! I have an appointment in a week.

elksy

Thanks for responding! I have an appointment in a week.

edit; Sorry for the double post, my internet is being wonky today.

Rikki444

Eating disorders are serious stuff... so beyond the skill of the MFP community. Please see a Health Coach or counselor to address the root cause of the behavior. Don't ignore it. Do something about now. And don't feel ashamed, we all have a 'problem' with food to a degree.... or we wouldn't be here. I wish you the very best and stay strong.

Femtec74

Kudos to you for recognizing it and doing something about it before it becomes an issue.

rhiannagreene

My main problem is when im bored i eat! Ween yourself off it by eating lots of really healthy low calorie food till your full then you wont feel guilty and find other things to keep you busy. Sometimes now when i wanna eat somethign bad, I just pick up and leave and go for a random walk to get my self out there and keep busy. Also purging will DESTROY your teeth!

rhiannagreene

Also slam a ton of water when your hungrey you wont wanan binge after that!!!

infamousmk

I'm glad to hear you have an appointment coming up! Definitely get help and best of luck to you.

shreyaj

That;s great that you realize you have a problem and you need to get help. There is nothing to be ashamed of we all have our weaknesses nobody is perfect. Your brave for tackling the problem and being honest with yourself. Seek professional help and be strong, you'll make it!

ajbeans

Seek counseling. Please. Bulimia is serious business and you need help to overcome it. Bulimia is never *just* about the food, so it's hard to change the behavior until you solve the underlying issues.

Edit: I see that you have an appointment. I'm so glad. Good for you!

elksy

Thanks everyone for responding! This community is amazing.

@Rhiannagreene: Thanks for the advice! And I am so with you on the eating-when-bored thing.
Is there any specific low-calorie food you'd recommend?

tamdee43

you can also rupture your esophagus and it can kill you.

shaverkl191

I'm so glad that you are seeking help and recognizing that there is a problem before it is too late!! I think you've made the right decision by making an appointment to talk to someone. Maybe it would help to make an appointment with a Dietician who could help you figure out a healthy eating plan? Regardless, take care of yourself and stay strong!

perishable

i agree with the other posters but i have a suggestion

if you find yourself binging, can you binge on fiber-heavy foods, such as fruits and veggies, mix some Metamucil in your water, and take a swig of coffee, so you just end up pooping it all out? in the midst of that chaos, you can have something you're craving (chocolate, cheese, whatever, but pick one, or just a little of two!) and it won't be as bad. this is what i do and i'm still losing weight at a steady pace that is the same when i have a week where i don't binge eat at all.

and if i feel like im going to eat, i just try to go to sleep or take a bath or do something where i can't eat (and i hope to get over the urge).

Munched

Puking up is a most inefficient way to loose weight but an excellent one to loose your teeth! Stomach acid rots your enamel. Go and see a professional and chat about it. Eat all the calories you have been recommended by this site to eat. You'll be fine if you look after yourself and tell that guilt gremlin to take a running jump! Good luck!

elksy

Thanks everyone!

you can also rupture your esophagus and it can kill you.

...Huh. I need to research the condition more.

I'm so glad that you are seeking help and recognizing that there is a problem before it is too late!! I think you've made the right decision by making an appointment to talk to someone. Maybe it would help to make an appointment with a Dietician who could help you figure out a healthy eating plan? Regardless, take care of yourself and stay strong!

Ooh, a dietician, that's a great idea! Thanks for responding!

elksy

i agree with the other posters but i have a suggestion

if you find yourself binging, can you binge on fiber-heavy foods, such as fruits and veggies, mix some Metamucil in your water, and take a swig of coffee, so you just end up pooping it all out? in the midst of that chaos, you can have something you're craving (chocolate, cheese, whatever, but pick one, or just a little of two!) and it won't be as bad. this is what i do and i'm still losing weight at a steady pace that is the same when i have a week where i don't binge eat at all.

and if i feel like im going to eat, i just try to go to sleep or take a bath or do something where i can't eat (and i hope to get over the urge).

I don't want to rely on laxatives, though... I'd rather stop binging (and stop feeling guilty for my slip-ups) and deal with the root of the problem. I do need to learn to distract myself, though. Thanks for responding!

Puking up is a most inefficient way to loose weight but an excellent one to loose your teeth! Stomach acid rots your enamel. Go and see a professional and chat about it. Eat all the calories you have been recommended by this site to eat. You'll be fine if you look after yourself and tell that guilt gremlin to take a running jump! Good luck!

"Guilt gremlin," that's cute! Thanks, you made me feel a lot better. And I do like my teeth!

Pangea250

(((((hugs))))) MFP is a great place for advice, but I'm happy you are seeing a professional quickly. This is beyond MFP's scope. The binge/purse cycle is a hateful thing, but it's a psychological issue, not a weight issue. You are AWESOME for seeking advice with what to do and following through with that advice. It will be much easier to deal with the problem now before it is seriously ingrained in you. Good luck to you. And I'm sending a friend req to you - I'd love to know how you make out with your appointment.

elksy

(((((hugs))))) MFP is a great place for advice, but I'm happy you are seeing a professional quickly. This is beyond MFP's scope. The binge/purse cycle is a hateful thing, but it's a psychological issue, not a weight issue. You are AWESOME for seeking advice with what to do and following through with that advice. It will be much easier to deal with the problem now before it is seriously ingrained in you. Good luck to you. And I'm sending a friend req to you - I'd love to know how you make out with your appointment.

You're so sweet! *hugs* Thank you so much!

perishable

you don't have to take metamucil, it only helps if you are low in fiber. however, eating apples with the skin, oranges, spinach, etc is super heavy in fiber. i eat a lot of protein and i am always constipated so metamucil is my best friend.

rhiannagreene

Carrot sticks with non fat dip,
rice crackers,
rasins,
and i buy things like, banana peppers, olives, non fat cheese singles, and tuna and make awsome next to nothin calorie, crackers that taste awsome! melt the cheese on them and its great. (no guilt!)

fionat29

I have suffered with bulimia, it is a very pernicious disease. While you have it you think that it is totally logical to get rid of everything you have over eaten.It makes sense, you don't want to put on weight so if you overeat, well, just be rid. It can't do any harm right? But you are just kidding yourself, I was lucky enough not to do any damage to the enamel on my teeth and I don't think I've caused myself any ulcers or anything. When I went to the doctor, they suggested therapy but guess what? 6 months waiting list!! In the meantime, my mum saw the letter from the doctors telling me, all hell broke lose and I stopped.
I think because my bulimia was purely a logical thing, there was no psychology in the background, I was just ridding myself of unwanted lbs even though I wanted the food in the first place., I just needed a push to get me to stop.
I wasn't young when this happened, I was married , 35 years old, I'd already lost 77lbs with WW and I didn't want to put the weight back on.
These days sometimes I think about it but because I am on MFP I seem to have no problem sticking to my cals and I'm doing more exercise than I've ever done. It's much more fun than making myself sick after I've had too much to eat or drink.
This is the first time I've admitted to this, it's why I won't write a blog, but hopefully no-one will think the less of me. :blushing:

rhiannagreene

love your picture "perishable"!! Thats hilarious

elksy

I have suffered with bulimia, it is a very pernicious disease. While you have it you think that it is totally logical to get rid of everything you have over eaten.It makes sense, you don't want to put on weight so if you overeat, well, just be rid. It can't do any harm right? But you are just kidding yourself, I was lucky enough not to do any damage to the enamel on my teeth and I don't think I've caused myself any ulcers or anything. When I went to the doctor, they suggested therapy but guess what? 6 months waiting list!! In the meantime, my mum saw the letter from the doctors telling me, all hell broke lose and I stopped.
I think because my bulimia was purely a logical thing, there was no psychology in the background, I was just ridding myself of unwanted lbs even though I wanted the food in the first place., I just needed a push to get me to stop.
I wasn't young when this happened, I was married , 35 years old, I'd already lost 77lbs with WW and I didn't want to put the weight back on.
These days sometimes I think about it but because I am on MFP I seem to have no problem sticking to my cals and I'm doing more exercise than I've ever done. It's much more fun than making myself sick after I've had too much to eat or drink.
This is the first time I've admitted to this, it's why I won't write a blog, but hopefully no-one will think the less of me. :blushing:

No one will think less of you!
It does seem logical! As soon as I'm done, I realize what a mistake I've made... but at the time, it just seems like a way to "have my cake and eat it too," so to speak.
Thank you so much for sharing. Even though I wish no one had to go through an eating disorder, it helps to know that others have had the same experience... and that it's not always as dramatic as the messages on tv portray it to be.

@Perishable: Thanks! I'll start eating higher fibre foods.
@Rhiannagreene: OH MY GOD THERE'S NON-FAT CHEESE? Why have I never heard about this?! Now I'm excited to take a trip to the grocery store tonight!

rhiannagreene

@Rhiannagreene: OH MY GOD THERE'S NON-FAT CHEESE? Why have I never heard about this?! Now I'm excited to take a trip to the grocery store tonight!

yes! but there singles, like kraft singles, but yeah there NON fat and theres like non soy non dairy cheese to super low fat and good tasting. I heard soy cheese is bad for women so that cheese is good.

elksy

@Rhiannagreene: OH MY GOD THERE'S NON-FAT CHEESE? Why have I never heard about this?! Now I'm excited to take a trip to the grocery store tonight!

yes! but there singles, like kraft singles, but yeah there NON fat and theres like non soy non dairy cheese to super low fat and good tasting. I heard soy cheese is bad for women so that cheese is good.

This has restored my faith in humanity. If non-fat cheese is possible, anything is!

djanels

NOT good advice; ur not going to recover by just coming up with other ways to 'get rid of' the food u eat.

Deanna

i agree with the other posters but i have a suggestion

if you find yourself binging, can you binge on fiber-heavy foods, such as fruits and veggies, mix some Metamucil in your water, and take a swig of coffee, so you just end up pooping it all out? in the midst of that chaos, you can have something you're craving (chocolate, cheese, whatever, but pick one, or just a little of two!) and it won't be as bad. this is what i do and i'm still losing weight at a steady pace that is the same when i have a week where i don't binge eat at all.

and if i feel like im going to eat, i just try to go to sleep or take a bath or do something where i can't eat (and i hope to get over the urge).

oh_em_gee

NOT good advice; ur not going to recover by just coming up with other ways to 'get rid of' the food u eat.

Deanna

i agree with the other posters but i have a suggestion

if you find yourself binging, can you binge on fiber-heavy foods, such as fruits and veggies, mix some Metamucil in your water, and take a swig of coffee, so you just end up pooping it all out? in the midst of that chaos, you can have something you're craving (chocolate, cheese, whatever, but pick one, or just a little of two!) and it won't be as bad. this is what i do and i'm still losing weight at a steady pace that is the same when i have a week where i don't binge eat at all.

and if i feel like im going to eat, i just try to go to sleep or take a bath or do something where i can't eat (and i hope to get over the urge).

ITA! Purging is a sign of a serious problem. I was borderline bulmic in high school. For me, it was a control issue. Coming up with another unhealthy way to be in control wouldn't have helped me in the long run. What did help was some counseling and working to develop a higher self esteem.

KALMdown

NOT good advice; ur not going to recover by just coming up with other ways to 'get rid of' the food u eat.

Deanna

i agree with the other posters but i have a suggestion

if you find yourself binging, can you binge on fiber-heavy foods, such as fruits and veggies, mix some Metamucil in your water, and take a swig of coffee, so you just end up pooping it all out? in the midst of that chaos, you can have something you're craving (chocolate, cheese, whatever, but pick one, or just a little of two!) and it won't be as bad. this is what i do and i'm still losing weight at a steady pace that is the same when i have a week where i don't binge eat at all.

and if i feel like im going to eat, i just try to go to sleep or take a bath or do something where i can't eat (and i hope to get over the urge).

I agree, that was not smart advice. Anorexics & Bulimics use ex-lax & suppositories to get rid of the food. That is no way healthier than purging. You can become dehydrated and mess up your digestive system.

I suffered from bulimia for years. I'm lucky not to have permanent damage but I do believe my metabolism has suffered from it. I'm glad you are seeing a healthcare professional. Good Luck & Good Health!

Papabear0428

Bulimia is no joke. I am glad that you are seeking the help you need if you believe that you are headed down that road. A lot of the time bulimia has psychological roots and it may take some therapy to find out what's going. I applaud you for recognizing it before it's too late and I hope you take the advice that the ones who have been through what you're experiencing to heart because I wouldn't want anyone to go through that. Take care.