Time to change my life

nicehormones

Hello all, my name is Kelly. I am 22 years old and fed up with the way I've lived my life up until this point. I'm sure a lot of you know this feeling. I've hit my all time high weight, and I never thought I would see those numbers even in my worst nightmares. Honestly.. I knew I'd put on some extra pounds, but I think maybe I had been avoiding the truth. When you never go clothes shopping and avoid mirrors, stuff happens without you paying close attention. When I saw photos of myself in a dress from a wedding, I felt so ashamed. I knew I didn't look great, but I really didn't realize it was that awful. After all, I had shed so many tears in dressing rooms in pursuit of a dress that would fit, and that's the one I had found that would zip up! I am what you call a yo-yo dieter. I have been struggling with control issues with food throughout my life, including eating disorders. I do not want this anymore. I think I've come to this point in my life where I am realizing that this problem isn't going to be fixed overnight, or even in a few weeks, and I am not a bad person for it. This is a lifetime change to eating and living the fit lifestyle of a thin and healthy person. Instead of starving to drop weight fast (which I have proved countless times leads to gaining all plus more back), I know I need to actually eat more and repair the damage that I have done to my metabolism. My goal is to drop 1 pound per week. I am somewhat scared that I will want to give up when I don't see the fast results that I have had in the past. I just need to wrap my head around the fact that I am actually doing it right this time and even though I may not see change very fast, it will be the kind of change that will stay. I have also quit smoking three weeks ago after being a regular smoker for about five years (yay!) so I am trying very hard to not gain any more weight. So my weight loss itself may take a while since my body is now adjusting to a nicotine-free life. I already feel so much better physically- I didn't know it could feel this good just to breathe clean oxygen! I am very proud of myself for not just wanting to make these changes, but actually putting them in action. I deserve a good long and healthy life. I am very hard on myself so while I am trying to change my body, I am also working on getting in touch with the real me again and learning how to treat myself better and deal with stress and setbacks. Sadly, I do not really have friends or family who are here to support me with my goals. I would very much appreciate any new friends or weight loss buddies that I can share successes and encouragement with. I will also welcome any tips or advice anyone wants to share. Let me know if you are interested in sharing my journey

1FineFaye84

Hi,
You're on the right track to making changes! I'd love to join you in this journey. It won't always be easy, but that's what friends are for--to motivate each other! Congraduations on quitting smoking! I as well just quit smoking 2 months ago. I still have cravings, but hey, I figure--if I can quit the cigarettes cold turkey, I can say no to second helpings of turkey (haha)! :laugh: Add me as a friend and I'll stay in touch. I'm on every day. Remember- You can do it!

gwenmf

Count me in~!

Brook70

I would love to have another person to motivate as well as be motivated by! Congratulations on quitting smoking. I quit 6 years ago and it was the best decision I have ever made. I have been on here 10 days so far. Please add me as a friend.

Ambria0516

You can do it!!!! Congrats on changing your lifestyle and quitting smoking. I also quit 3 months ago, it was harder than losing weight for me, but I love being able to breathe again Feel free to add me. I am a daily logger.... Good luck!