Yesterday was NOT Saturday..!

MayMaydoesntrun

Last night, our bff came over and brough some cold beer. Have I told you how much I like cold beer? Yeah? Well, ok. Anyway, I have been reserving my Saturday's for my "cheat" day. I am an avid Alabama football fan. We go to all the home games, watch all the away games on tv. We make a party out of it! I've set aside Saturday's as such so if I want a stadium dog or a couple of beers, I can have it without the self imposed guilt that inevitabaly comes with it. It has been working just fine, so far. Until last night.

Jay brough beer, like I said. It was Thursday night. I had already kinda blown my eating calories after supper...I couldn't get satisfied..so I told myself, today will just be my Saturday. There was a football game on. Not my beloved Alabama team but another SEC game, LSU V MISS STATE. I still have a game this Saturday NIGHT to watch that involves MY team. What the hell was I thinking?

I'll tell you what I was thinking. I was thinking since I've blown it for today, why not just have some cold beer to make it all ok? So I did. I really enjoyed myself too.

So, what? <---you may be asking. I guess "what" is that this morning, I feel guilty. Like I cheated on a boyfriend or something. This morning was my weigh in. And no, I didn't EVEN get near the scale this morning. I know better. Did I think about that last night? Hell, no.

With that, I am telling myself to just get over this. I've done it, there is not a damn thing I can do about my actions YESTERDAY. I can only do something about my actions TODAY. I can stop using my Saturday's for any other day of the week, just because I didn't make good food choices. (How lame was that??)

But wait. There is still this nagging little ***** of a voice in the back of my mind saying..Your pals probably think you are not "really" serious about this journey. They (most of them) don't indulge and then broadcast it. They all are losing weight weekly without a so-called cheat day. Blah, blah, and blah.

You know what I'm saying to this voice? Back off, beeeoch..This is MY journey. I know what I'm capable of..not anybody else. MFP's will like me no matter what. And if they don't, they'll delete me and life goes on.

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss "

I'm not sure if I've made myself feel better or not by putting this out there. But one thing is for sure...

Yesterday was NOT Saturday! And that's ok, tomorrow will just be my Thursday and I'll get my act together fo' sho'.

GibsonDarlin

I think your rant is good therapy....you said it out there for the world to see and you feel better!! Today is a new day enjoy!!

lizsmith1976

I indulge and broadcast it

It would be impossible for me to be perfect now, meet my goal, and then add back everything I gave up. I figure as long as I limit my indulgences to less than what they were before, mostly make healthy choices, and exercise my butt off (for health, fitness, appearance, stress-relief, not just the number on the scale) then I can have some fun and enjoy my life too!

Hook 'em ;-)

cariandy

Hey girl!! you know what?!?! this IS your journey!! AND.....---> You are rocking it! You are adding distance and speed to your runs!!! You are making good decisions every day!!!! We have to live this life and enjoy it, too! Don't knock yourself for wanting to relax and celebrate with friends!! We ALL do it!! I bet some just don't log it or admit it!!!

I think you are an inspiration and are a very GENUINE person!! and that is what we need here!!!

you girlfriend!!!!!

wiglet23

Don't be too hard on yourself! It's one day... we still have lives to live and what good is that life if we don't allow ourselves a little bit of fun! So what if you slip a little bit one day.. you will for sure make up for it soon no doubt!

You sound determined. With that, you can do anything!

MayMaydoesntrun

awwww, thanks y'all!

chyloet

I am not one of your MFP's but you can surely add me and ... I'm not judging you. I feel your frustration. I am reading a book about nutrition and I found myself not eating enough because I am so confused about WHAT to eat. Last night out of total frustration I announced ... I am not going to go my whole life without eating a cookie or piece of cake. This morning I looked at those fig newtons (seems innocent enough, right?) after reading the ingredients I got as far as "high fructose corn syrup" and walked away ... "Will I ever be able to indulge guiltlessly again?" I wondered.

Well anyhow, my 40th bday is just around the corner and I've planned a bday dinner at a somewhat gourmet restaurant that does not specialize in catering to the healty eater (lol!) ... I've been stressing about "What am I going to eat" ... "How many cocktails am I going to allow myself" and worrying about how bad I'm going to feel the next day.

Ugh! At some point it becomes so ridiculously tedious.

I also leave for an all inclusive vacation in Jamaica on Wednesday and I'm already planning my workouts, meals and active excursions. Is this my life now? Not that these are bad things to do. I believe that my success lies in planning. I guess what I'm saying is, can I just allow myself to let go a little now without feeling guilty or worrying that it will be the beginning of a downward spiral.?

Did this help you? I dunno. It helped me, I guess. LMFAO!!!

I just have to stay focused on how much better I am feeling physically and emotionally aside from the weight loss.

MayMaydoesntrun

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snewsome7

You are amazing and I am so glad we are friends! I drink beer and wine more than I should. The only reason I don't broadcast it, is because my status updates and stuff go to my facebook and I am friends with all my family on there.. I posted a status on facebook about drinking some beer one night and my uncle hasnt been the same since haha. That might be a negative reflection on me, but I choose not to make my family mad if I can help it. BUT anywho, you're not the only one that has beer during the week. Two days won't destroy everything you have worked for. The other night I had wine...a lot of wine. And some ruffles. I weighed the next morning and I actually lost weight and it hasn't come back on. My point is this...you are on this journey to make yourself healthier all around...as a lifestyle change. It is ok to have things you like every now and then! I had to remind myself of that when I started this because diets do NOT work for me. And I refuse to give up my beer or wine every now and then. But what I have given up is drinking 2 beers almost everynight of the week. That's why my butt is here among other reasons. You are an amazing person, and I admire your strength and motivation more than I let you know on here. Thanks for being awesome and showing so much support! You ROCK! oh and...ROLL TIDE!! :]

AI1108

Just a few months ago I used to drink every weekend... I mean hardcore "spilling over the bathroom floor, ready to hook up with the first guy to walk by" hardcore. I was fresh meat right out of college.. what do you expect? haha I haven't drank like that since one of my first weeks on MFP. My coworkers and a few friends invited me out last night so I decided to indulge a little... 2 happy hours, 2 bud lights, a malibu bay breeze, and a good night of sleep later .. I look the same but feel great and am ready to get on with this showww! Am I going to do this every week? Probably not but it felt great to "cheat" on MFP for a night. Did I confess and upset him a little as I closed my diary and saw that if I had nights like last night I'd probably gain weight? Yes. Did I have a moment of guilt for a while? Yes but guess what?

Its okay to indulge every so often (even mid week)! its life and if you can't do what you enjoy doing for fear of it ruining you (when really it wont lol) then what are we doing working on making our bodies healthier and live longer?! You love football and cold beer.. a skinnier, football deprived, beer deprived you isnt going to be happier and in moderation I know nights like last night def didn't kill either of our weight loss efforts. :-)