i have to get back to 40 pounds ago, and have no idea how to

Megabot

Howdy all. I don't know where to start here, so I'm going to start with how I got here.

When I was 28, I was on top of the world. I went to the gym daily, had a normal life, and enjoyed going out with friends to restaurants and bars, could eat anything. I was looking great. Tall and thin. Then my mom died.

Since that time (2 1/2 years) I've moved 3 times, and had to fly from east-->west coast and back, several times. I haven't lived in the same place for 3 months solid in three years. My grandmother and cat died within the same year my mom did, and I basically just kept gaining weight. I gained 50 pounds.

I've lost around 10 pounds so far, and I need to keep going. I had a good routine for a bit, but had another (non family, thank god) disaster earlier this year and had to leave my normal life once again.

I have had the most trying past couple years in my life but I'm slowing down to normal. And now I'm ready to physically be back to normal. I just don't have enough motivation to go to the gym right now, and I need some help. I still have 40 pounds to go, and I think I'm ready - but just need to do it.

I keep trying to re-start losing weight, and I've slowly lost a few pounds, but I have to seriously LOSE some WEIGHT. I don't want to feel like a blob anymore, I want to fit my old clothes. I want to get back to a good place in my life where my boyfriend sees me as hot, and something he really wants. I want to go shopping and not feel embarrassed - even alone in the changing room.

I used to be able to run faster than almost anyone I knew - and now my knees hurt when I run more than a few hundred yards. I'm only 30 and I feel I'm missing out on my youth and enjoyment of life - which I know can be altogether too short. My mom died at 62, That means I'm half way there, soon. But I don't want it to be.

Maybe just writing this is helping me - but if you, too, have time to share your thoughts, please do. I'm at about the end of my little frayed rope.

M

emmiee921

Your story has touched me.
Sometimes i'm not good with words, but without knowing you I am kinda proud of you,
never give up, stay strong as you already seem to be.
Good luck

Enforcer25

Hi Meg,

First thing to do you did, you joined and introduced yourself. You should next decide how much you want to lose a week and start logging the foods you eat. This has helped me to watch what I eat and make healthier choices, most of the time. Then start exercising. You can start off with a walk, elliptical, etc. Don't let your knees stop you, others have bad knees and work through it. This is not a sprint, but a long marathon, along the way you may fall, but you will get up and keep going. You seem to have the motivation to do this and now you have the tools, so tomorrow make one little change and that is te start. Good luck.

Megabot

thanks
I can use any luck I can get - I've felt like I've been outta luck for a while.

Megabot

Hahah first step taken - thank you, this is going to be easier than I thought, if people keep pointing out I'm already doing things! Thank you - I'm going to keep going. I was doing great tracking foods with MFP and had to fly x-country to deal with stuff, and got kicked out of my routine.

Here I go again, though. Onward.