This is it.....let's do it! :)

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Hi everyone! I am a mother of 4 girls, and we are done having kids now so it's my time! :) I've got to get this baby weight off and set a good example of health and fitness for my little girls. Not skinny-ness mind you, HEALTH! That is my goal. I don't feel that means a generic number, I feel everyone is different. Another goal of mine would simply be to feel good in my own skin. Not to be self conscious about how I look so often, enjoy time with my husband and kids fully. To be able to go out shopping and not have it be a miserable experience because nothing fits right. To feel like I'm something that my family can be proud of. To be in the maintenance stage and not have to obsess as much about this :)

A little history/bio quickly- I am one of 7 kids and 5 of us were girls :) As any girl out there knows, we are mean as adolescents. With that competetion with sisters came obsession and struggles with size and beauty, and with that came eating disorders. I tried anorexia for a week, but that was hard to hide. So instead, I resulted to bulemia. I did that for a few months until it took control one night and scared me out of it. From that point on, I still struggled with my weight. Shopping has always been miserable. I hated swimsuits. I felt like I was the fat, ugly duckling more often than not. Now- this being said, looking back on pictures now it makes me sick to think that I was so miserable with who I was. I would love to have that body again! But at the time, I had a "cookie cutter" image in my head of what beauty was, and I didn't fit that mold. I played sports, ate well, would exercise for a total of 2-3 hrs a day with all the activities I was in and yet was unhappy. Oh if only I could have that now! But......flash forward, years later after still continuing to struggle with all these things, I am now the mom of 4 BEAUTIFUL baby girls and self worth and confidence is way more important now than any cookie mold! I want to set that example for them so they don't go through the same struggles I did. I want them to feel beautiful (which they hear all the time from Daddy!) and to compliment each other on beauty (which they've done) They do know that I am working on "getting smaller" but I've told them it is for health reasons and I hope they get that. We talk about what foods are healthy and what's not and they really actually ENJOY water, fruits and veggies, milk, etc. They love their sugar and candy too, but keep it in moderation. If anything they are a great motivator and example for me. So....here I am! After years of this journey and struggle, yo-yo weight and fad diets I've GOT to do this. I'm done and this weight needs to go! :)

I would love the friends and connection this offers and the support that comes with that. So if you are just browsing this and feel like we have something in common, similar goals, etc. feel free to friend me.

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  • shazzy047
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    good luck :-) enjoy the journey as well as the destination :-)
  • vegasaims
    vegasaims Posts: 128
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    Good luck! I love your attitude!
  • lelc63
    lelc63 Posts: 8
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    Good luck and welcome, I am also new to this so hell yeah ... lets's do it ;-)
  • brilessmith
    brilessmith Posts: 16 Member
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    Jess, It is hard to be so open about your past, but they say that admitting the problem is the first step. I am proud of you for your honesty. I think the way you love your family is amazing. You are right. When you are healthier, you will be a better wife and mother. You can do this, and I am sure you will.