Just started work and I think I need some advice. please hel

toomuchinfo2

Hello,

My mom past away about 3 years ago and I started therapy about less than a year ago. I think it is helping and I can finally talk about her and think about her without remembering how terrible it was to watch her die.

I started work about 2 weeks ago and my manager put my desk in her office, so we are less than 2 feet away from each other without any divider.

We were talking about the thanks giving sale and suddenly I remembered my mom, there is more info you might need to know because I shared that too.

My mom and dad divorced when I was very young and I was raised with my dad and step mom over seas, I didn't meet my mom till I was 19.

My manager was sharing with me what she used to do with her sister in the thanks giving sale. I started to share with her what I used to do with my mom, then I stopped in mid sentence, I hadn't remembered these warm feeling things about her in so long. I found my self silent for a few min, then I looked at her and she was starring at me (like what is going on) so I spilled the beans. I told her all in one sentence My mom and dad divorced when I was little and I finally saw her when I moved back to the states at 19, she is dead now, but when she was a live she had a tradition of going to fred meyers for the after thanks giving sock sale. We started in the line at 3 or 4 am and we had so much fun.

Her response was looking at me funny then saying ok and getting back to work on her computer. This was on Monday, since then she has been treating me differently and I know she said something to my colleagues b/c they had a meeting without me yesterday (I am supposed to be in all the meetings) and after the meeting one of my colleagues came to me to give me advice so that I can fit in easier in my work.

Honestly I don't need this job and they are underpaying me greatly, I am working so I am not bored out of my mind at home.
Do you think I should stay or just quite?

toomuchinfo2

does no one have any advice for me?

teagin2002

I am sorry about your mom. If it extremely uncomfortable then yea leave, but it doesn't sound like it is.
I think its ok just slow down and keep quite for a while, and focus on your work.
I don't know why she has you in her office, she really should give you your own space.

Good luck