I need the support...

boydsterk

This is an amazing site with amazing people. My first day here - I already feel like everyone is working together as a team to make our weight loss goals a reality! I'm 23 and strugging with alot.

A little bit of why I feel like all this support and motivation is going to help me out --

I was always smaller in school 5'6 and about 115ish. I graduated highschool and started working alot -- and of course that brings in good ol' fastfood. I jumped up to about 130ish. I met my ex, and once him and I started dating I packed on weight and I jumped to my heaviest of 185lbs. I lost my job, and was unemployed for about 6 months so I ended up getting to about 175 during that time frame.

July of 2010, my older brother commited suicide and mentally that put alot on me. I started to struggle with my mental health from just anxiety attacks and such. I then lost my two childhood dogs - one in August and one in January.

My ex and I were in the process of buying a house in January when my world fell apart. He left me for a younger, smaller, girl. The love of my life, left me. Being together for 3 years, I was completely devistated. I stopped eatting, I stopped caring about work, I got really sick during that time frame. We were having a huge battle over our rescued pitbull, Peanut, -- during the time he'd take him and bring him back, and take him and bring him back. Finally one day I told him either leave him for good, or take him. Safe to say, I didn't see Peanut again. (He's no longer with the girl he left me for, and has since then tried to come back to me once - and then started with another girl.)

I dropped down to 144lb during my breakup in just a matter of a month -- but I didn't go unpunished. I started having servere pains on the right side of my body -- when I consulted a doctor -- it turns out I had to have my galbladder removed. For the first few months I tried to suffer through it, and finally last month I HAD to have the surgery because I just couldn't keep food down.

I posted up a then (180lbs) and now (149lbs) on my photos on my profile for those who'd like to see.

On a happier note, I did close on my house in April, and right after my ex took Peanut -- I adopted an amazing pitbull named Leo from a local shelter who is my WORLD!

Now that I've had my surgery, I'm in my new house, I have two amazing dogs and a good job -- I'd like to start getting my life back on track. I've sworn off dating -- because it's not a concern of mine right now and I let myself get far too hurt over my ex. I'd like to eat healthy, be able to hike again (I use to love backpacking trips!), and most of all -- gain the self confidence my life has taken away form the last few months.

Thank you, whoever took the time to read this -- I wish you nothing but sucess and I can't wait to continue my healthy lifestyle with the support of this site!

jilers

You've been through a tremendous amount of stuff in a very short period of time. Be kind to yourself. Try to get a rhythm back into your life. Eating healthy and maintaining your strength is important. Good luck and welcome.

TooFatToFit

Wow. You have been through a lot! But you sound strong, and you can do this! I've have an anxiety disorder as well (therapied away one phobia, but a lot of social and general anxiety still affect me daily), and in December of 2009 my husband of 11 years left me for younger/prettier/skinner...guess who found out younger/prettier/skinnier doesn't count for all that much after all. But still, at the time, it was crushing. Now, I think he did me a favour, because I'm quite happy without him. I get the sense you feel as I do...that we can put that stuff behind us and make the rest of our lives AWESOME. Best of luck to you!!!

Shelby814

Congratulations on the strides you've already taken to get your life back on track. You've certainly been through a lot & sounds like it's time to make yourself a priority. MFP is a great place to start! Welcome & add me if you'd like! Shelli

Curtina

Hello B,

I have recently left my husband also and I know how you feel. I am starting my whole life over. After I left I realized that I had changed, I was fat and unhappy. Long story short, I am now beginning to place my life back together one step at a time. Anytime you need to talk or anything just send me an email.

Jfearn64

That is a lot to go through in a short period of time. This is a great site full of positive people willing to give you the motivation that each of us needs to succeed. I also went through a messy divorce several years ago. Now I am remarried to the best woman in the world. Things will work out in time. Hang in there, things always seem to happen for a reason. Feel free to add me if you want. Good luck!

boydsterk

Thank you so much everyone. I've never really laid it all out like that before. And it feels good, because my weight has been a factor in the whole mess of the past year.