Self Motivator

solman66

Hi all,
I just looked through my food diary today and realized I've been doing MFP for a lot longer than I realized and thought I might as well join the forum. I never really cared about my weight and still don't for the most part, but at some point I realized I need to be healthier. I hadn't been on a scale in several years so I have no idea what I weighed at my highest. I bought a scale at the end of June this year and use that as my starting weight. I knew I had stopped drinking soda and eating slightly better for a few weeks before that, but I didn't realize until today that it was actually a lot longer. It turns out I had started logging on MFP at the beginning of April, so I very well could've lost more than the 40 lbs I've been telling people. At 250, I'm at my lowest weight since graduating college 6+ years ago, though I still believe my beer gut is bigger now. I don't see a big difference in the way I look, but other people seem to. My goal weight is whatever I weigh when I keep doing what I'm doing now without losing anymore. I have found that milestones help me a lot, even if I don't hit them, but I don't want an end game. My next milestone is another 10 lbs by Thanksgiving.

I'm typically a self motivated person. For some reason the typical support group type stuff has the opposite effect on me than it's supposed to. I guess I'm just a cynical person because being around upbeat people makes me angry. I could never do weight watchers or something like that without a heavy dose of alcohol. Some people say that when they see results/get compliments it motivates them to keep going. That type of stuff tends to make me slow down and get lulled into a state of procrastination by thinking I'm doing well so it won't be a big deal if I skip a few days. I'm not saying I enjoy a negative push though. I just feel I work best if I'm challenging myself rather than paying attention to what others are saying.

That being said, I do need help from time to time because I certainly don't know everything.

MyCoachNYLA

I hear you.
I totally had to find out on my own what works for me and one time when I did get to a healthy weight, I had a hard time dealing with all the attention. I just wanted them to leave me alone but on the flip, if I did not get a comment on the changes I made, I would have feelings about that too. LOL - now that I think about it.

I still can deal with certain feelings after all these years. I can really relate to your thoughts.