Do you remember how you felt at your heaviest?

elbandito

Wow, I 100% agree with your signature !

Thanks. I still feel that way and my biggest regret is not starting sooner.

Tonnina

I actually was okay with it for a long time because no one told me it wasn't okay to be so large... I didn't have health issues (yet) and I had good friends and even a fiance... So I felt fine and loved.

Then I met my sister in law (to be at the time) and she thought she was fat and the girl was a little chunky but nothing like me. She was a size L in most things and I think her pants size was 14 or 12. She made me feel confused because I thought I was okay but then I started to wonder if that was the case.

When my Lady parts doc said I'm too hypertensive and too heavy for normal birth control that was my first red flag.... Then my body doctor told me I was hypertensive and had a small heart issue and possibly had bad cholesterol. These where the other red flags... Last thing was when my Sister in law actually lost a little weight (she was about a size 8 at the time) I felt like "well if she can do it and feel that good about herself then I can do it too!"

I signed up to join a gym this year because I want to take care of myself before getting pregnant. I had also seen plenty of larger people getting pregnant and having extra issues added to the complexity that is pregnancy. I didn't want that at all.

I'm happy to say I've almost reached my 1/4 of the way point (I'm .2lbs away from 25lbs!) and I'm even happier to say that I FEEL so good about it and about myself. Way better than just "okay"!!!

JacksMom12

I went through drug rehab and gained a lot of weight, I then got pregnant and gained even more weight... so 90 lbs in a year will do a lot to someone's self worth. I felt like I was trapped in a foreign body and would cry when I caught glimpses of myself in the mirror. Going from a size 0 to a 16 in a year also makes shopping miserable. I hated leaving the house and I felt sorry for my husband that he had to be seen with me. I made fat jokes all the time about myself because I knew that's what people were thinking when they were around me. Part of me was happy that I beat a brutal drug addiction that ruined every aspect of my life at the time...but I was ashamed at the weight and thought it was like my punishment for the life I was living before. I am slowly gaining myself and my confidence back but it is still very hard and I still break down when I see all of my old clothes or have to remind myself not to be shocked when I see my bigger self in the mirror.

Samerah12

Funny you should ask. I just (literally JUST) tried on a pair of sz 8 jeans (hand-me downs from my last roommate, I've never been a sz 8) and I got them on but they were tight. My first thought was "oh man, this is how my sz 16s used to feel..."

Other than that- physically I felt ok, although I couldn't REALLY have felt ok. I think because the changes have been so gradual for me (1yr + to lose almost 60lbs) I don't really notice significant differences in day to day stuff. If you dropped my brain back off in my fat body right now I'd probably feel like crap.

u2fergus

Ugh... heartburn, knees hurt constantly, if I took too long to tie my shoes, I'd have to straighten up and breathe before finishing, because my fat stomach was crushing my lungs so much, I couldn't shop at decent stores for anything but scarves and shoes and purses, fat arms that looked like legs, fat stomach that stuck out farther than my chest, fat legs that were constantly rubbing together at the top so I'd have to get new jeans every few months because there'd be holes in them, a double chin and moon face, and worst of all... the constant, ever-present fear that somebody would notice me and say something mean to me about my weight.

Yeah... I don't miss this at all. I'm still a long way from my goal, but I'm very happy not to be living like this anymore!

EricInArlington

I remember this guy looking at me on an airplane and getting super pissed because he had to sit next to me, I had my sunglasses on and was pretending to be asleep, he really made me feel like sh!@#

I remember not being able to tie my shoes very well and when I did it felt like someone had a choke hold on my neck, like all the blood was rushing to it.

I remember always getting extra food for free from the people at the fast food places, like I needed more.

I remember going through my phone numbers and seeing two pizza places and one Chinese food places on the phone number list

I remember all the sweat pouring off me like crazy, now I cant go without an under shirt, before it was way too hot

I remember not taking any pictures for the last 10 years or at least not on purpose

sufikitkat

I felt low on myself and unproductive! Now I feel unstoppable :-)

irishgal44

Wow, thanks so much friends for sharing your stories and some really sad ones - you all look amazing - keep up the fantastic work!!

RyonsLions2

I didn't realize how bad I felt until I lost the weight and now I realize how bad I felt and how heavy and slow and tired and big and awkward. I also realized how tight my car was. My belly actually touched the steering wheel all the time and now I am about 3-4 inches away from the steering wheel!! I definitely feel SOOOO much better! :laugh:

irishgal44

I didn't realize how bad I felt until I lost the weight and now I realize how bad I felt and how heavy and slow and tired and big and awkward. I also realized how tight my car was. My belly actually touched the steering wheel all the time and now I am about 3-4 inches away from the steering wheel!! I definitely feel SOOOO much better! :laugh:

I agree with the car thing!!! I remember one day I got in my car and I felt little - I actually had to move the seat up. It was a first for me since I had always had the seat as far back as possible.