Done with it

Vivian_Phoenix

Every now and again I get into this mode, where I make a free for all for myself using the following mindset :
"ill eat as much as i feel like tonight/today and then I'll start being strict tomorrow" or " well since I've eaten bad already I might as well restart tomorrow (which gives me permission to basically pig out and not take responsibility of being disciplined) Its crappy and I'm sick of doing it. I caught myself thinking it again tonight and I don't know why... I usually think that way when my SO has gone off to bed, and I'm here in the living room alone watching a documentary or something, perhaps I eat when I'm alone? Starting this journey last week has really opened my eyes to who I was. I used to wake up every day accepting that I would be 135-140 forever, so what's the point?. So many times I'd given up on myself, I was a quitter. Today I'm writing this and I'm 134lbs, although to some being 1lbs under is nothing, to me it proves me wrong, and it proves that I can improve and become better. I can become more disciplined and take control of my life instead of feeling like a robot who takes orders from cheese and cookies. I'm so tired of food having this hold on me, I no longer see it as an ultimate pleasure; I see unhealthy foods as an obstacle blocking me from realizing my fitness and health goals, I'm back and with a vengeance this time. I'd rather suffer the pain of saying no to my greed than the pain of beating myself up later for being weak.

kagenw

Good for you! Unfortunately, I still love the unhealthy foods. I'm with you there as far as the difficulty to say no to overeating after hours. Late night snacking does that to me all the time. Here's to going to bed earlier

MarlaChandlerBarton

Good for you keep up the good thinking. As it is said that other way is "Stinking thinking".

BigDaddyBRC

Great rocgonition. Remember that everything you do revolves areound the choices you make or do not...Choose wisely, young grasshopper