A week later

miss_sarcastic

A week post-hardcore-breakup and I'm down over 6 pounds. I've eaten maybe 5 times in the last week. Ate nothing until Friday night. Twice Saturday. Once sunday and once yesterday. I'm hardpressed to believe any day was even over 500 calories.

I want to eat but I can't. The thought makes me sick. I wish I could find a way to kick myself in the *kitten*. Get angry. Take it out in a workout and then eat afterwards. I just haven't gotten there yet.

In other news...I never thought I'd be sad to see 199 on the scale this morning. I wish it were under different circumstances. It doesn't seem like a happy goal anymore.

geri1955

Get over the grief of breaking up with your partner, anyone who cared about would NOT make you feel this way! Go forward do not look back..God does things for our best and that is what you have to believe, have trust in Him that he has a better plan for you!!! Your partner is only one person in this universe...dont ever allow anyone to take away your power!! Get up, dust yourself off and move forward, there are alot of fish to fry!! Your worth a million!!!:flowerforyou:

Helenatrandom

Living well is the best revenge.
George Herbert
English clergyman & metaphysical poet (1593 - 1633)

I'm sorry he hurt you like that. I wish I could go make him eat his own excrement. But I can't. And if deep down, you want him to feel bad for leaving, he won't just because he sees you are miserable. He'll make it your fault in his head, not his. Do try to eat well (and by well, I mean healthy), and do things you once enjoyed with people who care about you. You will feel better, and if it gets back to him that you are doing well, he will wonder.... And THAT would be sweet revenge!

If I'm off base, I apologize. Mourning can cause all sorts of food dysfunctions. I just want you to value yourself more than you do someone who apparently undervalued you.

miss_sarcastic

I want to be angry, mad, etc etc because that is always easier. The only way he hurt me was by saying the flame burned out, he didn't end it sooner in hopes it'd ignite again (instead of telling me what was going on in the first place and working on it together, or w/e), then decided I didn't deserve receiving less love than I was giving. He really was a gentleman and wonderful, all things considered.

Having been cheated on and in abusive relationships prior, I can say it was always easier if I could be mad. But I can't be mad...I'm just confused and hurt and left wondering. Constantly wondering.