Nobody likes to be reminded of their screw-ups

AloyMomNwife

Today I shared with a friend some old pics of when I was very skinny, less than 10 years ago. I mentioned some of the stressful events that triggered my weight gain. I thought I was over all of that because the last 2 months or so I have felt the best in the last 4 years. Talking about it today made me so sad I had to change the subject. I told my husband this and he reminded me how I had forgotten about him and my one daughter at the time and had just sunk myself in food. I have spent the last hour unable to control my tears and feeling so low it's unbelievable. It is not cool to be reminded of our screw-ups. Trying to find the bright side to every situation, at least I didn't go for an extra glass of wine or the cookies sitting in my fridge to console my frustration. I wish I could erase the painful memories but I look at them in the mirror every day. Good thing to keep me going is I had a calorie deficit of over 800 calories today. I must pick up the pieces and keep going strong... I owe it to my family.

Qarol

I don't mean to offend you...but please seek therapy from a good professional.

Contrarian

I agree with Qarol. You seem to have unresolved issues and might benefit from having an objective person to talk to. Please consider it.

Cara2Me

My dad always said that every situation is a learning experience. You have learned that this is not where you want to be. No need to be down on yourself. That will get you no where. For whatever reason, you are here today. So accept that and then decide to do what you need to do to be happy with yourself. It sounds like you have a great support system. You can do this!

NiciS72

Awwww, that sucks. But think of all you've accomplished since you turned it around. Focus on the FUTURE and getting back to a healthy wholesome you! I agree with Qarol, seek someone professional to discuss the issues and work through them so you don't fall back in the bad rut you were in.

Chin up, YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!

SarabellPlus3

Many hugs to you, I'm sorry you had such a rough day! I also think you might benefit greatly by having a professional to talk to. There's no shame in that, they'd be able to help you sort through, and deal with these feelings, when your husband might not know how to support you in the right way, especially.
Great job in not going to the junk food to comfort yourself, that is so hard, and you did rise above that! Best of luck.

Missmissy0003

Wow, it sounds like you are really beating up on yourself for something that happened a long time ago. It doesn't sound like you are getting support you need right now. I agree with the earlier poster, that therapy or maybe talking to a clergymen may be a good idea. Not because there is something wrong with you, but because you may need help letting go of the guilt that you feel.

fitplease

The low point is just that -- low. But, look at the progress you have made today. You are proof you are not that person any longer. Your husband has even commented that that is the case. Think of the life changes you are still making that will benefit everyone, especially you in years to come.

If the memory still stings, talk it out. Maybe you can talk about it with your husband and use this as a time to bond together, and to tell him how sorry you are and that you love him. (A suggestion only.) Then, do something special to celebrate your love for one another.