maybe bigger, maybe smaller-someone's still unhappy.

jencute

Here's my problem: Tomorrow I'm probably going to weigh myself. Last time was about 2 weeks ago and I weighed 107 or 108. Since then , I've been(begrudgingly) trying to eat more and maintain my weight. However, I'm constantlyy under the amount that it would take to exactly regulate my weight. I still feel bigger though and honestly physically uncomfortable all the time since I've been pretty much making myself eat more. I'd personally be pleased if I weighed less, but my parents are another story. Currently I already weigh too little to them, and if I had to count the number of negative comments from the last time they visited me at school, well I'd lose count very early on. It's just so frustrating. Every day my macro nutrients are either perfect, close to perfect, or even slightly over. My body isn't wasting away, I have nice new muscle definition... I just wish I could enjoy it without constantly thinking "Yess-oh wait how do I hide this now." It's starting to make me feel more self-conscious than I have in the past.