Fellow Stress-Eaters: I NEED HELP!!!

Aviendha_RJ

Sorry for the novel, but I need to vent, & my family/bf/friends aren't awake.

k... so I left my miserable job at the bank because I wanted to go back to school to be an Accountant, & had exhaused the possibilities of correspondence. Good right? Put in my notice: suffered TWO WEEKS of pranks, snarky comments, rude behaviour, & all around misery. Came home in TEARS every day. :sad:

Lucky I picked up a full time waitressing job at a local Kelsey's Restaurant (big chain in Canada). Great right? Started off at full-time for a server, like 24hrs/week. Awesome. Training went ok, got tables for the FIRST time... &... I'm sorry; I don't remember signing up for "Hell's Kitchen"? When did my red-haired-chick-boss turn into Gordon Ramsay? She's on me for EVERYTHING... even stuff that isn't my fault. And apparently this is a pattern for her. I've been in tears three times in that building in under 3 months. Yep... UNDER 3 months. I haven't made probation yet. So... I'm FREAKING OUT. :noway:

Every time I twitch, I'm screwing SOMETHING up in her eyes. Some of the other staff have given me some advice... "keep your nose clean"... which makes me paranoid, & nervous, & walk around feeling like I'm guilty of something terrible & haven't been caught yet. You know, that.... "Oh yes, officer... Its me... I'm the one who's been biting the heads off those babies in the maternity ward... Forgot about that till now." :grumble:

So. I suck as a waitress... but I'm tipped really well, so my tables are apparently happy (so sayeth some of the other waitresses). I'll catch on... I will. I've just never served before. But I'm getting better. I just need to not make so many mistakes. Or get yelled at. So sayeth OTHER waitresses/kitchen staff at the restaurant trying to put a case together to get my evil Gordon Ramsay Clone fired. (Stressed about participating in THAT too... should I? Shouldn't I? What to do, what to do? :sad: ). The Evil Boss' next trick? Cutting back my hours. AND not letting me pick up more hours like the other servers do all the time. Maybe I *do* suck? I don't know. All I have to go by are what the other servers say (positive) & what SHE says (negative).

My hours have been cut back... my pay cheques don't cover rent. I was counting on that. Now I'm worried about money even if I STAY at this job. But seriously, I'm worried about getting FIRED :sad: and don't know what I should do.

To top this off? I'm back up to 150lbs. I *WAS* down about 2 weeks ago to 145lbs & SO happy about it. But now I'm back up... because I CAN'T STOP stress-eating. I'll binge on pizza pockets for desert. I'll snack on cereal bars in the evening... I ate SIX 60-cal pudding cups THE DAY I brought them home from the grocery store.

To reduce my stress level, I've applied to about 20 jobs in the past 2 weeks. Even places that weren't hiring I've applied. I interviewed for a seasonal bookstore position. If I get that, I can pay rent until January, even if I get fired. But... I just don't know what to do.

What do you DO when you CAN'T STOP stress eating?

BeautyFromPain

stress-exercise. Let it all out :flowerforyou:

EmmaShorter

You poor thing. That sounds just awful. I was allowing myself to stress eat yesterday a little. I am a teacher and today I am being observed. Only I felt like I was totally unprepared for it. I since have got myself as prepared as I could at home. I have two lessons this morning in which to finish my preparations i.e. Print off my stuff and do some measuring. Hopefully tonight I can come home and relax a little. It will soon be over. As the person above said get some exercise. I would have loved to have gone for a walk yesterday to clear my head but I had time constraints. Good luck with the job hunting and going back to school.