recovering binge eater/food addict

tostadaeng

It's my 1st day too. I feel so scared and lonely. I don't know how I am going to make it without food to cover up my emotions. I've spent my entire life (last 30+ years) hiding my emotions in some form or another - the last 20 years using food.

My relationship w/food is more like an addiction than anything else. I feel like I am killing myself w/food and eating until I am miserable - too full, can't breathe, can't think. I pass out from eating so much sometimes and then have food hangovers. I feel so sick and so helpless.

I am trying to accomplish a goal I have worked so hard for for 5 years now. I am in school. I want to finish, but I don't know if I can keep up my busy work and study lifestyle and still make the changes I need to make. I think about therapy - but I'm short on money and also on time. I'm really hoping that the anonymity of online will help me open up and share. I've always been a very private person and I don't share these things about myself. A friend of mine recently told me that I need to ask for help more.

I'm asking now. I need help to do this. I need people who can understand and support me in this change.

tostadaeng

It's my 1st day too. I feel so scared and lonely. I don't know how I am going to make it without food to cover up my emotions. I've spent my entire life (last 30+ years) hiding my emotions in some form or another - the last 20 years using food.

My relationship w/food is more like an addiction than anything else. I feel like I am killing myself w/food and eating until I am miserable - too full, can't breathe, can't think. I pass out from eating so much sometimes and then have food hangovers. I feel so sick and so helpless.

I am trying to accomplish a goal I have worked so hard for for 5 years now. I am in school. I want to finish, but I don't know if I can keep up my busy work and study lifestyle and still make the changes I need to make. I think about therapy - but I'm short on money and also on time. I'm really hoping that the anonymity of online will help me open up and share. I've always been a very private person and I don't share these things about myself. A friend of mine recently told me that I need to ask for help more.

I'm asking now. I need help to do this. I need people who can understand and support me in this change.

VballLeash

We are are here to help thats for sure. I have not experienced your same situation but I can definitely support you. You can do it, it just takes a lot of will power, its not easy but it has been done, there are many inspirations on this website. Good luck and don't every feel scared to open up! :happy:

~Leash

heal4444

Love yourself no matter what.

Breathe. Take one step at a time. One day at a time. One breathe at a time. Breathe.

You've come to the right place. Welcome to MFP. Now, get settled and enjoy your healthy lifelong journey of weight management, health and fitness.

All of us here at MFP are here to help you. Take it easy. Rest easy. Breathe.

I admire your courage to open up. Do you keep a journal where you can write everyday in it with a pen? What would it be like to write down some of your concerns on paper and work them out there?

You are what you focus on. Focus on what you want not what you don't want.
What is it that you want?

MyaPapaya75

Welcome Aboard:drinker:

chantybear

You have come to the right place, since I have joined all I have received is sincerely nice support for any matter. Although I have not gone through the same thing as you, possibly similar in the past, I know you can remain anonymous, while still get help through this site. Add me as friend if you like

cmriverside

Welcome:flowerforyou:

You can do this. We are here for you. Stay here. Keep coming back every day. Read as much as you can, and journal your thoughts every time you eat when you aren't hungry.

Many people here have overcome compulsive eating. The answer is out there. Keep looking.

cmr

donna2girls

Just wanted to say hi, i have just joined and this is my first post read and its the exact same as me so understand how you feel

good luck :flowerforyou:

MOMOFTWO29

Hello and welcome to MFP. You will love this site if you don't already. I love this site so much. It is so motivational, supportive, helpful, and everyone is so nice and friendly. I just wanted to tell you good luck on your weight loss journey. You can do this.