Tooting my own horn

StephanieNP · December 2011

I just had to share with people who will understand what this feels like:

* I am 9 days binge and fast food free. As someone who has dealt with disordered eating (of various types) for 15+ years, this is HUGE.
* I have logged my food everyday, and I've actually been cooking for myself and avoiding junk.
* I just calculated the calories for the traditional dish we have every Christmas eve, pre-planned my food and calories for the day, and figured out just how many aebelskiver I can have without breaking my caloric bank. My family thinks I'm ridiculous, but I will NOT undo all the hard work and progress I made!
* As of this morning, I'm down 25lbs from when I started tracking with MFP. I've still got 80 to go, but at least it's moving in the right direction!

I feel like this time, it might all stick. My body feels strong, my mind is clear, and I'm finally seeing food as fuel - not a way to manifest my emotions or as the enemy.

Hardly anyone in my "real life" has any idea about my struggles with food and body image, but I know there are others here who will completely understand. Thanks for letting me pat my own back!