Back...AGAIN. NEED support.

MrsPong

Hello All...
I'm Charlise, 23 mother to a 3 year old daughter, and wife to an active duty U.S Marine... Here is my story that i feel I need to share...

I got pregnant and married young, I let myself go after having my baby. I was heavy weighing in at 175 before pregnancy and after.

Being married to a marine is hard for many many reasons. In 2010, We went through a tough year and almost split. I started at the gym to get away from the tension and was diagnosed with a mood disorder. I started treatment soon after and things calmed down because he and I began to understand why I was so depressed and moody. I was at the gym every single day after that... I was a new person.

Then my husband got shipped off to Japan in April (just a year after our "tough year" and my mood disorder) for what they said would be a year... I moved home to Ohio with our daughter and was at the gym everyday, getting thinner and stronger. I was a lean 135 lbs by July!! =] I felt good, looked good and it was wonderful. I traveled to Japan to see my husband and didn't gain a lb.

I came home to find that my meds were going to be changed and they did. I couldnt stop the weight from being piled on...I became upset and stopped all meds. Then I became depressed once again, I would workout...but overeat. I also graduated college and started working in an office. Depression, not having my husband around, and a desk job caused more lbs. The lbs kept coming on... and still are.

Im now 157lbs... about 7-8 lbs "overweight".

The doctor switched back my meds, but still not on any meds due to the fact that my husband is returning home (YAY) and we decided to try to get pregnant, and the meds I'm on is to risky for a baby. I'm trying to do this weight lose without the help of my meds to keep me happy and focused. But I've failed all month long... Yet I'm determined to lose this weight and to go back into the person I loved...

Luckly, my husband is very supportive( and home) and is like a human book with all the eating/fitness knowledge one can think of due to the millitary. My husband has suggested ways to keep my hunger from getting the best of me (which is my problem) ... So I'm going to try to do this whole weight lose thing again... It kills me that I let it get so far without "caring" about the weight gain... I'm determined to get this weight off and be proud of who I am again.

Sorry, so long and in detail but I had to get it out so someone can hold me to what I have state....

Good Luck to you all,
Charlise.

TheLuSir

Excellent choice to vent out at the gym. When we work out we release endorphins which makes us a bit happier. And you're lucky to have a very supporting and educated husband. Work out together to bond and keep your partner support system strong.

Good luck! For you and your pre-baby!

Detrick99

I know exactly how you feel, I'm in the same position.I was 190Lbs and went down to 144 Lbs. this last spring. Summer came and I stopped working out. Now I'm 156Lbs, clothes are tight. It is depressing, but you have the tools, you know what works for you, you did it!! you've been there! you know how wonderful it feels to be healthy and fit.. YOU CAN AND WILL DO IT AGAIN. I know you can, I can tell your a strong and determined person, you need to find yourself again and take yourself back to that wonderful feeling, you know what i'm talking about. I gained pounds and many inches, but am happy to say i'm tired of feeling uncomfortable so I started my work out again, why it took me soooo long??? I don't know. I do know I don't ever want to be back in a 16, with that being said having the pounds pile on and the inches, I'v decided its not worth going back! I started my P90X routine again...its painful! but I know it works, it works for me. You know what works for you! We know what the results bring from our workouts. Hard work = Success = Happiness. I hope my words are encouraging to you.

MrsPong

Thanks! All your words have helped just reading them, knowing that I CAN do it and other people feel the same way as I do.