who really enjoys change?

Delia_Jane

I've done pretty well for about 6 months , but, all of a sudden during December I couldn't find a minute in the day to exercise, and neighbors, family and friends all were eating and sending treats to our house, and I enjoyed tasting most of them.
During this last month, I came to a realization. I came so close to reaching a goal I set for myself before my crash. I think I was afraid of being successful! Everyone was so supportive and people were always telling me how much better I was looking. I didn't want to loose the old fat Delia all together. What was wrong with her? So she was a little obese, would it kill her to just accept herself and move on? Yes, I think the weight and poor health may kill me, and I couldn't move let alone move on. Have you ever heard of anyone feeling like two people? The old me being left behind in the work for a new me. Does anyone out there ever feel that they are purposely making bad decisions just to keep from changing?