I think im still half in denial? HELP!?

ramira77

hi everyone,

I think i have a problem with either being in denial or zero motivation. I know this is going to sound silly but i step on the scale that reaches 14 stone 8 lbs,i think to myself"oh my god thats really bad" i feel reallllllllllllllllllllllly guilty about it as ive never been this size,but it seems like my brain wont take this seriously?i know ive zero motivation but good intentions,then i go in a cycle that i go and eat junk food and think"so what im ugly anyway" kind of thing,does this make sense? and i know that the answer is "just do it" but why is it so hard?i was diagnosed with clinical depression but im not using that as an excuse cos i was putting on weight the way probably before that. ive no family and few friends who i rarely see.im a single mom with 2 lovely kids so you could say im lonely fat AND ugly LOL...anyways,any ideas?id really appreciate it.

Roni_M

So that means you have two really really important reasons to take care of you! You won't totally commit to this if you are not there mentally. Think of the good habits you want to pass on to your kids. Get them involved in encouraging you. Before you know it they will be holding you accountable. I'm not sure how old they are but you'd be surprised how much they will love nagging you at pretty much any age! Mine are 18 & 21 and if I'm putting something on my plate that's not healthy looking I get the whole "and how many calories are in that mom?".

surromom2010

I think it might help if you stop thinking you need to do this for someone else. I've never thought of myself as a good looking person either, and changing my diet and adding exercise has not helped my acne problem either, but I FEEL better. Maybe you should just start slow and once you see how changing one little thing you make a huge difference, you have a snowball effect. I used to drink an energy drink every morning to wake myself up, then I'd sit on my butt for hours in front of a computer. The sugar in the drinks was a huge problem. In the beginning of my diet that was the ONLY thing I cut out. My one energy drink in the morning. Without adding any other changes or any exercise at all I weighed myself 2 months later and had lost 6 lbs...Stunned myself. Think of the one thing you have most every day, and find a substitute for it, then go from there. Never thought I'd be researching low fat peanut butter online but I did yesterday and had to laugh, it felt so good..Good luck sweetheart you can conquer this mind block!

surromom2010

If I could like this comment I totally would. lol

bcattoes

Clinical depression can be tricky. It saps your desire to want to better yourself, yet exercise has been shown to be as effective as drugs in treating it. My suggestion would be to not focus on yourself and the scale, but on your lovely children. Focus on becoming a good example for them and teaching them good eating and exercise habits. Don't even look at the scale for a while. Once you start focusing on health and exercise your weight will correct itself. Just don't put so much pressure on yourself to make that scale move.

ramira77

thank you so much for your advice and info guys,it does help to have someone to talk about what to do with the weight!
my kids are 6 and 11 and my daughter who is oldest,says she is embarressed,which hurts kind of,but i defo dont blame her,i just tell her im sorry and that i wont be like this forever:/ plus i use my sense of humour to mask how im really feeling(i guess most of us do)
ive done a food diary today and i was shocked and ashamed! its not portion size i have a problem with but im addicted to sugar!
im on snicker bars n chocolate and pizza etc and to be honest im almost boaking going into the shops knowing like i feel like i have to get that snicker bar to keep my energy up and im lethargic alot of the time and really sick to death of junk food-but then im not that crazy for other/any food either?i used to drink 4 litres of diet coke daily and ive cut that down abit its a blooming viscous circle!
i was a total gym addict a few years ago and 7 days a week id go and come out feeling great! now i escape to sit on the bloomin computer...then the guilt starts etc LOL. thanks again for listening,with sstarting to use this website i feel a bit under pressure to do something about it but i think that might be a good thing:)