2 Problems - Obsession & Yoyo-ing!

asmithson19

Hi Everyone - Just wondering if anyone had any guidance or suppor to offer... It's a bit of a long post - Sorry! :yawn:

For the past ten years I have had what I like to call an obession with food - And about 90% of the time this means being obsessed with NOT EATING IT! - However the other 10% of the time (when I am 'not dieting' or calorie counting) I over eat... I go to the extreme of over eating that I can easily gain up to 8ish kilo's (20pounds, I thnk) in a matter of weeks!! And then I go back into 500cals a day mode to lose it all again - and depending on what is happening in my life (weddings, important social events, holidays, etc) this cycle just continues...

To help answer my question I need to tell you two stories:

Story 1) About 7years ago, after a hard breakup, I lost 10kg's (22pounds) in about 6 weeks by simply not eating, I didnt do this by choice - It was just my way of dealing with what had happened - and then the compliments came so I was able to maintain this for the next few years by limiting my calorie intake - I didnt lose any more weight, but maintaining it is easy right!?
(At this point I was 57kg (125pounds), I am 5 foot 3inches - So still a healthy weight range but I have a very athlectic build and broad hips and shoulders - so I was very thin at this point).

.... Over time, the weight creeped back on through stages of overeating and only losing some of it before through on again off again stavation modes...

Story 2) About 18 months ago I moved overseas (from Sydney, Australia to Dublin, Ireland) and in the lead up to this big change I gained approx 6-8ish kilo's so the moment I arrived in Dublin I decided to take a different approach to weight loss and worked my butt off (literally) and after about 4 months was in the healthiest shape of my life - I ate approx 1000-1200 cals a day combined with a mix of cardio and resistance training. At this point my lowest was 62kgs (136pounds).

...I have since returned to Australia and after a 3month travelling trip home I undid all my hard work by allowing myself to eat what I wanted and got back up to the 70kg mark (155pounds) ---- Since then I lost the 6-8kg's (15pounds) for my best friends wedding by extremely low cals and obsessing with not eating... and yep, you guessed it over Christmas I allowed myself to overeat again for approx 3weeks and I am back at 70kg (155p) mark - OMG!!

So my two problems - Does anyone else face either of these??

Problem Number One - Obession - Basically I am find it extremely hard to have any sort of consistency with food and my eating habits - I clearly dont know the meaning of balance - Does anyone have this problem??

Problem Number Two - I am struggling with losing weight the healthy way (like I did in Dublin) by training hard and eating right when I know with this I can only get to the low 60's (135ish) when I know that if I starve myself I can get down to a much lower weight but most importantly when I am at this weight I THINK my body looks better, looks slimmer (its more than just the number and I know the muscle weighs more than fat scenario) and that's what I want again -But the only way I know how to do this is the unhealthy way - Does anyone else find extreme differences in their bodies in terms of shapes, measurements and weight when losing weight different ways??

Wow - After reading that back - I am really not normal! :ohwell: