Anti-Suicide Checklist? Really?

Aviendha_RJ

So... under a LOT of stress lately. It's ridiculous. Cliff notes version of my life: :explode:

1) Bought a rental property I NEVER should have, & now I have a mortgage plus $45k in debt associated with the damned thing, 4 lawsuits I can't collect on, upstairs tenants that smoke pot & aren't paying so they're leaving Feb 1st, main floor tenant wants to leave because upstairs smokes pot even though he's evicted already & constantly calls to complain to ME even though I can't do anything, the Cops have to
2) Left my bank teller job because I moved & didn't want to die on an infamous highway in the winter
3) Got fired for being a ****ty waitress in November, & still not working
4) Found out I "don't qualify" for involuntary job loss insurance on my loans because I got fired? :grumble:
5) Found out I "don't qualify" for Employment Insurance because I quit my bank job :explode:
6) Can't pay rent/buy groceries
7) Can't find a job even though I resume-bombed the city
8) Can't talk to my own sister about any of this cuz she's a ***** :brokenheart:
9) My Dad's lying on a beach in Mexico right now with my stepmom who won't let me talk to him about this either
10) Can't get in touch with the guy wants to buy my rental house to firm up the contract
11) That sale contract might disqualify me from Welfare because its lease-to-own but doesn't cover all bills for the rental house
12) I have to come up with about $3k to get me BY in the next 41 days until the rental house sale closes: IF IT DOES... :sad:
13) I have a cyst on my right ovary, for which I have a narcotic painkiller
14) I've stopped sleeping right from stress, for which I have a heavy sleep-aid :indifferent:
15) My appetite is messed so I don't eat, then binge
16) Can't find the energy to go to the gym/justify the gas money :sad:

K... that's a lot, I know... BUT... it's my life over the past couple of months.

Now... went to a walk-in-counselling service to talk about some of my issues... maybe get some de-stressing ideas? Figure out how to get my *kitten* in gear to even to an exercise video/deal with my **** every day without being a snivelling mass of tears/shaking ball of stress. :noway:

What does she do? Let me talk for 2 & 1/2 hours (instead of my allotted 1 hour) & make me do a "Why I Won't Kill Myself Checklist" and promise I'll give my prescription meds to my boyfriend to babysit, because he doesn't live with me, & only keep 1-2 of each on me "just in case". :explode:

WHAT kind of HELP is that? It's like... giving me IDEAS.....

sherrybaby81

Wow, that is not cool advice from that counselor.

Have you considered maybe filing for bankruptcy? In dire cases it is actually a good thing to do. If you are so far in financial trouble it may be your only option. I don't condone using bankruptcy if you are able to work to get yourself back on your feet but you do sound like you are in way over your head here and may be your only option. You can get a fresh start and get financial counseling in the process to learn how to budget (I think that is something they make you do when you go through this, at least, I know someone who had to go through all that).

I've known you since we were kids as Girl Guides, and you have always been a positive person, no matter the situation, and never seemed to let anything bother you. Just remember to keep your head high and you can get through this.

Also, about your cyst, see another doctor. My doctor sent me to a gyn, who put the surgery off because he felt it wasn't necessary at 6 cm, even though I was in pain (no pain killers were prescribed). My personal doctor had to talk to him again to make him do it. By the time we actually got it taken care of, it was almost 10 lbs and took over my left ovary, which meant I had to get my ovary removed.