For those of you who are bingers

kwehkweh

I've binged since I was twelve. At the beginning of my weight loss journey I was up to bingeing twice a week. I would literally eat until I threw up and then hide the wrappers in my neighbors trash bin. If there was any food left over from what I bought I would sometimes binge again. It started way before I had issues as a teen. I had good parents. There was no reason for me to start this but I did. And even though I'm now going months at a time without a real binge, I still struggle with it.
Today I binged and it was a pretty bad one. My mom called right after I got sick and I ended up venting to her about it and how pathetic I felt and how much of a disappointment I was.
She said something to me that I really wanted to share with all of you.
"This isn't a regular addiction. You have to eat food to survive so you're surrounded by your addiction all day long. And every day someone will eat something that you really can't have right in front of you. If you can love someone with any other addiction, why are you so hard on yourself? You are not pathetic, you are not a dissapointment. Big or small I love you."
I'm hoping all of you have someone like your mom or your spouse or even a friend who you can talk to about this because you really need to hear that you're not horrible for having a problem.
So if any of you ever just need to talk to someone about this, I will respond to any message. I can at least empathize with you on this and know what it's like to feel horrible afterwards.

Yasmine91

It's great that you have someone who sympathizes with you about this. I had insanely bad binging episodes. I would eat until I puked too. Till my stomach stretched like as if I were pregnant. It was aweful.

My mother insulted me about it, my dad was being a little understanding but at the same time told me 'just don't do it'. It's not like I could, it's an impulse.

I used binging as another means to self harm when I think about it now. I struggle with cutting, binging made it more unnoticeable to my parents.

I do feel sometimes that I just want to eat everything! but becoming vegan has helped in a strange way.

kwehkweh

It's great that you have someone who sympathizes with you about this. I had insanely bad binging episodes. I would eat until I puked too. Till my stomach stretched like as if I were pregnant. It was aweful.

My mother insulted me about it, my dad was being a little understanding but at the same time told me 'just don't do it'. It's not like I could, it's an impulse.

I used binging as another means to self harm when I think about it now. I struggle with cutting, binging made it more unnoticeable to my parents.

I do feel sometimes that I just want to eat everything! but becoming vegan has helped in a strange way.

I'm sorry your mom insulted you about it. And I hate the "just don't do it" thing because it's just another way of saying "I have no clue what you're going through so I'm just going to treat you like an idiot." My parents have three kids and all three of us have had problems with addictions so in a way I lucked out because my parents know how to talk to me about it. It's weird that you said cutting because I had impulses to do that too but they didn't last long. I went straight back to bingeing.

Yasmine91

You're very lucky. My parent's aren't really the most understanding. My dad has become over the years but my mum is stuck on her backward thinking.

They're just so diplomatic about everything. It's a good thing you didn't get into cutting, it almost becomes natural to you, kinda something to do as well :P