The binge - part 2

Farfelue

Dear all,

I am overwhelmed by your very kind replies. I never expected this! So thank you, really.
A lot of interested thoughts have come through, and the one that hit home the most is "why" and "punishment".
It is obvious there is an emotional underlying cause to this.

I'd like to think that I can carry on buying the chocolate bars for the children and keep them safely in the cupboard, I am not really in a position to remove all the stuff.

This binge crisis didn't happen before and so I want to go back to before. This is fairly new so I need to work out what triggered it and hopefully I'll get myself out of this.

Another very good point : alcohol. The minute I've had a glass (so I'm not in a drunk state, let's be clear on that), I decide anything is possible. There are no restrictions. I can do whatever I want.
Like when you have wine goggles and all of a sudden reality changes, well it would appear the same happens to me, only with the fridge/larder doors rather than wanting to snog anybody!

So step one, remove alcohol consumption, even if it's just that glass at the end of a busy day. And besides, it's just a habit, not a need.
Step two, when the little demon twings a naughty food idea in my head, don't listen. Play the angel versus demon picture and try to have the will power to not succumb.
Step three, if the previous two have failed, and I'm about to put the food in my mouth, think about WHY I'm doing it and tell myself that I will regret doing it.

I don't have a step 4.

Again, I thank you all for taking the time to reply. It's a bizarre thing, to be sharing this most intimate and shameful sin to total strangers, but the thing is, I can't tell anybody close to me. I would lose face. I would be too embarrassed.
I am saddened to read there are so many people suffering from this, using food as a palliative to daily life's stresses and anxieties.

Food is for nutrition and to be enjoyed when shared, not for reward, not for punishment, not hiding.

Thank you all. I hope I can be of help to you too soon.