Bingeing no more!

imworthit

For the last 2 years I have struggled with bingeing, which in turn caused me to gain weight and fat around my middle I have never had before and has had me feeling bad about myself, embarrassed and ashamed. Luckily, I've continued to exercise, or the results would be a lot worse! For too long I have been looking at food as either good or bad and when I'd eat what I considered bad, I would get down on myself and then say, Well I've already blew it, might as well just pig out. The binges would last about 3 days until I'd feel so down and ready to eat good again. Which would last about 4-5 days and then something would set me off and the cycle would continue. I had an AH HA moment Sunday morning and I'm ready to end this habit that's had me miss out on the last 2 years. No more! I am conquering this now! I want to be the best I can for me and my family. I am doing this for me because I'm the only one that can. I will do a post for myself each day to let me see how far I've come. Today - 3 days binge free!

I am stonger than food!
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels!

imworthit

For the last 2 years I have struggled with bingeing, which in turn caused me to gain weight and fat around my middle I have never had before and has had me feeling bad about myself, embarrassed and ashamed. Luckily, I've continued to exercise, or the results would be a lot worse! For too long I have been looking at food as either good or bad and when I'd eat what I considered bad, I would get down on myself and then say, Well I've already blew it, might as well just pig out. The binges would last about 3 days until I'd feel so down and ready to eat good again. Which would last about 4-5 days and then something would set me off and the cycle would continue. I had an AH HA moment Sunday morning and I'm ready to end this habit that's had me miss out on the last 2 years. No more! I am conquering this now! I want to be the best I can for me and my family. I am doing this for me because I'm the only one that can. I will do a post for myself each day to let me see how far I've come. Today - 3 days binge free!

I am stonger than food!
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels!

persian_dancer

Keep telling yourself that! Nothing tastes as good as thin feels!!! You can do it!!! :drinker:

Shrimpton

That is EXACTLY the cycle I'm stuck in! My binges will last 1-2 days and then I'd eat good for 4-5 days. I would gain 3-5 pounds from the binge and by the time it comes off, I'm binging AGAIN.:mad: I'm new to this site and have made the commitment to be honest with myself. I just logged in todays binge and I ate over 3000 calories. :brokenheart: It was easy to ignore when I wasn't accounting for all my calories. I could justify what I was doing to myself. Now I can see in black and white what's going on and I DON'T LIKE IT!!!! I can now move on and get rid of the bad binges.

imworthit

That is EXACTLY the cycle I'm stuck in! My binges will last 1-2 days and then I'd eat good for 4-5 days. I would gain 3-5 pounds from the binge and by the time it comes off, I'm binging AGAIN.:mad: I'm new to this site and have made the commitment to be honest with myself. I just logged in todays binge and I ate over 3000 calories. :brokenheart: It was easy to ignore when I wasn't accounting for all my calories. I could justify what I was doing to myself. Now I can see in black and white what's going on and I DON'T LIKE IT!!!! I can now move on and get rid of the bad binges.

Yes, I totally agree! When I wouldn't log my food, I was totally in denial of how many calories I was taking in. By logging you can see it clearly and it makes me want to stay on track. I'd just had it with myself and the road I was going down. I had recently read something that said, "If you didn't change anything in your life right now, would you be happy with where your life was in 5 years?" I don't want to waste away another day. I am choosing freedom from bingeing!

lenmana

Yep...that's a hard one, but I know you all can do it! If others can then we can. This site is amazing and a great tool.

imworthit

Day four of no bingeing and staying in my calories! Tonight I had two chocolate chip cookies and then stopped. I could feel ok with it because I still didn't go over my calories. (It wasn't healthy, but I enjoyed in nontheless!) In the past, I looked at a cookie as bad and forbidden, and felt guilty if I had some and so then I'd go into a full blown binge. All because of treating myself to dessert. It sounds so dumb, but I've realized I've been trying to be a perfectionist with my eating and then kicking myself if I wasn't 100% eating good all the time. It has been a terrible cycle for me. I am so proud of myself for changing the way I think, which in turn is changing the way I eat, for the better. I know it's only been four days, but I feel like this time is different and I may finally have a handle on this!