Please offer support, late night eating "habit"

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I tend to over eat at night, its usually pretty healthy food, but tonight I really am not even hungry, and I ate a high calorie dinner, which I dont feel guilty about, it is a very specific family tradition that once in awhile is totally acceptable, but I really do not NEED any food but I am WANTING to eat so much, I just want to cook a big bowl of mushrooms, zuchini and carrots and drop it in some vegetable broth and eat til my tummy is all swollen. I want that sensation of eating and specifically of being very full. And Ive done so well these last few days,dropped a few pounds, I know Id be so mad at myself if I am up or back to my last weight in the morning