What are your weight stories?

karinapeterson

Here is some of my story.

I have always been large. When I was little my mum used to say you would look just like Elizabeth Taylor if you were smaller! Dont think that helped me. My mother was small and my sister too. I have never been smalller that 72kg since 15! I was actually about 72kg when I got married but I was running 10k every second day and eating a 1000cals but that is hard to maintain and I went to 82kg and settled there until I got pregnant with my daughter. I piled on the weight and when I had her I was 103kg, I never lost baby weight. It was a complicated birth with the cord wrapped around her throat so resus was needed and later she was rushed to neo natal unit not breathing where they diagnosed a congenital heart condition and we spent her first three weeks in Greenlane Hospital then finally got to go home with her attatched to oxygen and an apnea mat for sleeping. The 3 months til her first surgery I kept on eating and could not get out as she needed to be isolated from germs so I went up to 110kg. Depression set in naturally as it was such a hard time and I went on pills for it which did not help weight. After her first surgery it was okay but my husband and I needed time to fix our relationship and figure out what our life was about now. Eveything had changed for us. She had another surgery at 2 and a half and I stayed that big until she was about 3 and a half and she was able to go to kindy like other kids. I managed to lose 12kgs and hover there. When she was 4 and a half we decided she needed a sibling so that the focus on her being a "special needs" child was not too much and didnt make her a selfish person and I got pregnant with my son. Well, with him we had a lot of scans, he had large kidneys and they said the chance of him being Downs syndrome was very high and would we like to abort. We said no. We had worked through our relationship and had already decided before getting pregnant that no matter what we would look after another baby with special needs if necessary. I am so glad we did not do what the doctors recommended as our son is perfectly healthy and an extremely intelligent boy. I ballooned to 122kg when I gave birth by cesar to him, he was a big boy and breech hehe. I dropped to 118kg afterward and then down to 112kg and sat there for a year or two. I then joined sureslim fed up and depressed and after 7 months got down to 84kgs. I was so happy but then I stopped losing and the person at sureslim reading my diary told me I must be doing something wrong! I gave up and slowly it came back til now with me starting at 110kg. I have done some form of exercise for the last 11years more as a way to combat depression than anything else. Helping to lose weight was a bonus. Now my journey has led me he hopefully to a healthy and permanent way of life.

Felt kinda nice to write this actually and makes me realise I shouldnt feel so bad. Things happen that we cant control and sometimes we just deal with it the way we can. Fixing it is what counts.

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