HI :D need friends? i need friends :) ok ok more friends:)

2bjemm

Hi everyone, im 22 years old, will hopefully be graduating from the university this summer and love turtles. haha. im on this because i finally want to do this, to commit to a healthier life style, to lose weight and to avoid from having some sort of heart attack (because ive def been feeling ill lately). I love international studies and learning about other cultures and in general apparently have a sweet tooth. I was staring at some pictures...i wasnt always this obese. i used to play sports for leisure, always ate alot but also burned alot of calories. I'm supposed to graduate from university this summer and as i was looking at some pictures i realized i have grown so big, i lose breathe, i have random pains, usually feel numb, and ask my roomies to go study in palces with boothes because chairs are so uncomfortable ( i think its time i open up about how shameful it is to be so "fat"). i used to always put an excuse to me gaining weight but i lost control and gained 80 lbs in 6 months. that's a huge problem. and i miss fitting in my jeans, not being self-conscious, not caring about covering myself up somehow. i miss taking funny pictures without being scared its going to be ugly. i miss being happy. this weight, this size, has seriously made me unhappy because i am not comfortable with myself. so im ready for the new me, actually to return to the OLD me, the me that was HAPPY and healthier:)im hoping to lose weight for my birthday in March 27, and more for my graduation in May and more for studying abroad in Germany in July. im finally determined to have a fresh start and hopefully meet new people that are in the same boat feel free to add me:)

PS: sorry for the long essay. I just felt I needed to share with anyone how bad it has gotten and how much im craving a new me with a new support system. Im not used to sharing how much I hate being my size. I truly hope to find friends in which we can encourage each other