I don't know what to do with my eating disorders.

happygirl338

Last year I recovered from anorexia. I was under 90 lbs. I now developed binge eating disorder. I gained enough weight to put me at a healthy 108 ( I am very small boned by the way ). On top of that I gaine an extra 17 lbs from my new eating disorder. It's crazy how I could go from eating barley 300 calories a day to eating 9000+. You can check my diary if you don't believe me on that huge amount. I literally eat until I feel so sick and can barley move. I go from eating as little as I possible can for 2-3 days and then go weeks with binging DAILY. I exercise a good amount, Atleast 30 minutes a day but most of the time an hour. I go to the doctors regularly and have been for over about two years now. I was advised to get a therapist but my family can't afford it. I was hoping that tracking my calories would make losing weight easier but when I'm in binge mode I could care less about calories. I don't know what else to do besides ask for support so here I am. Do you guys have any tips at all for me? I need my life back and my eating disorder can't take any more of my time that it already has.
Thank you all do much.