My brain still thinks I am fat..

twinmama1987

5 feet.
SW: 195 lbs
CW: 148 lbs
1GW: 135 lbs
FGW: 115-120 lbs.

This is what I think ALL the time: I buy a pair of jeans, that fit like a glove... a few weeks later, they are sagging in the *kitten*, falling down, baggy behind the knees etc. So, i tell Sean: "Oh god, my big butt stretched out my jeans! They won't go back down to size!!!! They look stupid now! -siiigh- " ... So instead of thinking: OH YAY, i lost more inches etc, i am thinking i stretched them out lol. I look in the mirror and i still see the same almost 200 lb girl. I don't feel any different, I dont appear different (in my eyes) ... Which is why I take all those weight loss pictures, otherwise, I would be 'hiding' in my 'fat' clothes. But, first thing that comes to mind every time i put on my pants and they sag -i stretched them out for good- lol. Don't know if my brain will ever catch up to my weight loss.


Anyone else?

La_Amazona

I sometimes feel the same way. I don't believe that I've lost that many weight nor that I look different. I have shrunk though as I'm wearing 2-3 sizes smaller now. Annnd pictures don't lie. I wore a hot little dress on Saturday and I f-ing looked hot in it if I do say so myself.

So what makes me feel my true size is buying clothes that I couldn't wear a year ago. Looking at pictures of myself is awesome as well. When people compliment me, I believe them and say thank you.

It takes time to adjust to the new you. You look great!!

Christine1110

I feel the same when I look at myself.....but I have lots more energy. I think my brain will finally see I have lost alot someday.
Before I was fat all over....now I still have a muffin top to lose, and it makes me crazy.

maab_connor

This actually can be a sign of body dismorphic disorder. basically when your brain can't see what you really look like. there are a lot of reasons for it and a lot of levels, from the annoyance at our personal appearance, up to life-threatening for those who struggle w/ ED.

if it really bothers you, i would reccomend a therapist. talk therapy can usually get to the root of the problem and help you to be able to see and own all that hard work you've been doing.

eatmeingo

I know how this feels waaaay too much because of my ED. I know even if I do get down to my UGW I'll probably still feel fat, but that doesn't mean I want it any less. The best way I have of combating this is keeping up with measuring myself and recording it. My brain can't argue with the fact that I HAVE lost inches on my waist and thighs and etc.

My jeans also stretch out, but they usually go back to normal once they've been through the dryer. Once they're back to normal, put them on again and you'll know it's not you that's stretched them out-- you've lost weight!!

twinmama1987

No, I am ok. .. There are days I feel good and days I just feel self concious .. especially after having my twins, no matter what I do the excess skin will always look like fat.. will always bulge.. I plan on getting it fixed. Its not quite that bad. When I see pics and stuff, i feel good. I dont think its an ED..

pope369

My problem is that I don't trust that I'll stay at this weight, so I'm not buying new, smaller clothes. Everything I own is now baggy and unflattering. I'm so familiar with my Mom's yo-yo dieting, that I feel like that's going to happen to me, too.

twinmama1987

definitely yeah! I have lost 60+ inches and almost 50 lbs.

twinmama1987

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/blog/twinmama1987

^^ my weightloss pics

maab_connor

No, I am ok. .. There are days I feel good and days I just feel self concious .. especially after having my twins, no matter what I do the excess skin will always look like fat.. will always bulge.. I plan on getting it fixed. Its not quite that bad. When I see pics and stuff, i feel good. I dont think its an ED..

Good to hear. i just thought i should mention, since it's clearly bothering you. but you ARE doing great by those pics!

twinmama1987

No, I am ok. .. There are days I feel good and days I just feel self concious .. especially after having my twins, no matter what I do the excess skin will always look like fat.. will always bulge.. I plan on getting it fixed. Its not quite that bad. When I see pics and stuff, i feel good. I dont think its an ED..

Good to hear. i just thought i should mention, since it's clearly bothering you. but you ARE doing great by those pics!

thanks! .. Not so much 'bothering me' ... Just like knock knock brain, hello in there.. get with the program hahaha

NatalieWinning

It takes a year at least. If ever. That same brain is still in there. I got rid of all the old clothes as fast as I could. I spend a lot of time buying, returning, and getting smaller cuter clothes. It was hard to drop the urge to get something because it fit, or because it made me look thinner. I'm trying to buy "cuter" and things "I like" instead. That isn't as easy as it sounds! I keep snatching up things and returning them because I picked them for the wrong reasons. The old reasons. Try not to let the old you stand in the way of the new you.

I kept pictures, lots of them, and I'm keeping them. Do a side by side and keep looking at it. Keep noticing all the ways you are not the old you. Keep working at being the new you. It will take a while, but you will realize it is you now. Live like a skinny person. It's a new skill!

It's okay to be a little (okay, a lot) obcessed with yourself. Thats why i'm still on MFP. So I can stay this way. Not everyone can stand the obcessed about me me me part of the new me. It's justs me working on me still. Thats okay here. We all understand this stuff!