Scared of Change?

Sweeterescape

This is a bit of a weird thing to say, as I am here to change and I think we all are, but do any of you ever find the weight you're losing a little scary?

I've always seen fit and thin people and thought things like "I could never look like that" etc...I feel like this time is different and seeing all of your amazing success stories has made me start to think that I can!

I used to be very overweight, and I lost a lot several years ago but never got past the last 20 lbs as I've been on a roller coaster ever since. I still have the same "bigger" shape and bigger size, though just within the healthy weight zone. I always said that I was just not built to be thinner. Then I started on this site.

Doing MFP since 1 January has been the easiest weight loss/fitness increase that I've ever done. After 40 days I've lost 5 lbs, gained loads of muscle and I'm working out regularly. I'm eating healthily and feel great! I have never made such a significant change before in my outlook to health and fitness. However, this week I've started to realise that I'm already 1/4 way to 20 lbs. My clothes are getting too big and I've started to think I'll need to buy a few new things. I went to a big posh department store with two of my work colleagues. They're thin and pretty, and always look great. I've never really spent money on my clothes or developed a "style" because I didn't really look good regardless of what I wore. These girls were chatting about makeup and clothes and what to buy and I just suddenly thought - is this what I'm going to become? I'm not saying what they're doing is a bad thing AT ALL, it's just that...well, it's never really been "me" because of the way I looked.

I've realised that over the last few days I've slowly stopped my healthy snacks, and had beer, fish and chips, cocktails, kebab, chinese...basically more big fatty processed foods sneaking back in!

I don't want to self-sabotage...but I feel a bit scared of actually getting to my goal and looking great. Will I still be me? I love myself on the inside and I don't want to lose all the great things about me. I guess I'm worried that such a big change to my life (looking differently, feeling differently, changing my attitude to health and fitness so drastically) might change other things too, and I'm a little bit scared of that!

Anyone else feel roughly the same? How can I push past it and get to where I want to be - because even if it's scary I want to get there!

Sweeterescape

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