Where to go for help?

Tattsat
Tattsat Posts: 7
edited November 10 in Health and Weight Loss
Okay I give up trying to control my binge eating habits by myself. Everyday I eat 3000 calories ! A DAY it is crazy and i am going crazy. I just want to be skinny again ! Everyday I try to control my eating and exercise. That last's one day and i'm back to my old habits again. I used to be anorexic ( I would eat 1400-1500 calories a day and do all the house chores to maintain my weight).

Here's my story, please read:
2 years ago I was chubby and disgusted with myself so I started to lose weight. I had a time in my weight loss period where I would lose 7-8 pounds and binge and gain 17 pounds back. This happened about 3 times and then I got a hold of it and starting losing weight again.

When I got down to 122 pounds I would feel cold and light headed most of the time. I believe it was mainly because my diet was not that brillant. I would eat breakfast (500 cals) and then go out and eat fast food with my friends and then ate oatmeal and an apple when I got home. I would never go over 1500 calories. This is when I was 15-16 year's old and around the time I lost my period.

I went abroad when I was 107 pounds and there I lost 12 pounds and become 95 pounds. My mom would always be on my case, always telling me too eat, making rude comments about me. She would say things like aren't you digusted with the fact that you look like a stick? The first 1 year when my mom started telling me too eat I took it but then the fights got really out of hand. When I told my parent's to get a dieticain they just laughed it off saying that I didn't need one to 'eat'. Because I had not had my periods for 2 year's I decided to eat.

At first it felt good to have soo much energy again but I just ate and ate and ate and the worse part is that my parent's encouraged it! I overheard my mom saying to my sister "let her eat this much for now, at least she is getting meat on her bones". I was eating 5000 calories daily (most came from icecream, my favorite junkie). Once I even ate 7000 calories - believe it or not. At around 120-125 lbs i would constantly be hungry and eat so I guess that was okay. But then this became a habit - eating this much became a habit and I HATE it! When my mom first told me to eat this is the very thing I was afraid of and didn't increase my intake.

I have been trying to control my weight since I was 125 lbs. I have made motivation poster's and tried to follow an exercise routine but it didn't work. Feeling bloated were one of the reasons I did not like go to exercise. I think the food became a stress reliever after a while because I felt soo ****ty about how I looked.

Now I am 155-160 pounds and I cannot take it any more! All my home remedies have failed and I need professional help - no matter what the rents' say. I cannot f up my life anymore - I LOVE BEING SKINNY !

What professional(s) should I go see? I have heard about inpatient programs, should I join one of those?

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