introductory blabber

dowzey

Hello everyone,

I'm new here, so I thought I'd introduce myself. 21 year old Dutchie, uni student (Literary sciences), foodlover and ukelele player.

I've been sugar free for um.. 2 years now I guess. I did low carb succesfully and went from 213 lbs to 181 lbs, and stayed there for about a year. The problem is, the minute I started eating wholegrains and fruit again, I stalled, and after about half a year I gained most of the weight back. The past months I've been ill and the weight started climbing up again VERY rapidly, since I was always a very active person and was suddenly pretty much homebound. I've done a lot of soul searching and thinking about my diet and my conclusion was this:

I'm addicted to food. The low carb worked for me, because I could keep eating without it being much of a problem. I did not gain weight from eating a hundred baked eggs with bacon a day (maybe exaggerating a bit but you know what I mean), and I enjoyed it. Especially with all the exercising I did it was an ideal diet for me. Only problem though, I got sick of the eggs. I wanted fruit and a occasional patato and a slice of wholegrain bread every now and then, so I started adding some carbs.

Since I loooove cooking and baking I was very excited about all the new possibilities, and generally the foods I had were natural, healthy and perfectly good for you, since I still didn't eat sugars, transfats or refined flour products. Except for the fact that I ate WAY too much of them. My boyfriend and his roommate embraced my cooking (l love them dearly but they are lazy *kitten* stoner slobs) and since I couldn't leave the house I cooked and baked and cooked and baked and ATE a lot and gained 20 lbs in a month.

Yes. Sadface.

I know now that going low carb is just an easy way out for me, and that if I want to be fit and lose weight I have to pick between either having a very restricted diet (under 20 gr of carbs a day) or get to eat fruit and lovely sugar-free baking and nuts (nuts are wonderful, I love them!) and starchy veggies, but deal with my issues and limit my intake.
Since I have a history with eating disorders I find it incredibly difficult to have to measure and write down my food, because it reminds me of old times and sometimes gets me back in eating disorder mode. I have taken the step to start seeing a psychiatrist again and tackle my old habits.

So, now you know everything and more there is to know about me